My late wife honestly.  For the longest time I felt lost…now it is a more frightening time…moving on without her.  I type this with tears flowing because an episode of 911 drove home this point for me.  Substitute the name Heather for Abby here and it is mostly accurate as to my feelings.  The thing about Heather that haunts me the most is the tiem I had to sign the DNR on her.  I then fell asleep…I had been awake for nearly 90 straight hours….but that is what haunts me..is signing her death warrant.  It was her time to go..it just doesn’t help me feel any better.  Me and Heather had some rough times…but I am a better man from her being here with me for the short time she was here.  I think the behind the scenes trigger was finally realizing the Kia is gone.  Yes I sold it and the vehicle is now in WVA getting the repairs it needs..but it never hit me as to what that meant.  She’s gone…and I am moving on…no matter how hard that is going to be.  She will always be a part of me…I will see her again once my time is done here.  Here is my haunting for this year’s Halloween:

 

Here is the song in the background:

I’ll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense then you’ll lose your mind
And I’ll use you as a focal point
So I don’t lose sight of what I want
And I’ve moved further than I thought I could
But I missed you more than I thought I would
And I’ll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense then you’ll lose your mind
And I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me
And I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me
And I’ll use you as a makeshift gauge
Of how much to give and how much to take
I’ll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense then you’ll lose your mind
And I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me
And I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me
Oh, and I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me
And I found love where it wasn’t supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me