In the past, i did not try or think about the proper way to approach a potential marriage partner at all. With my first truly devoted relationship, That turned into my own hell after that relationship ended. With heather, we went the right way once we both came back to the Lord and then ceased until we were married. The last 36 hours of her life is the hell i vowed to go through…and i did..but not only until death parted us but for nearly a decade afterwards.
This next time, since heather’s death to the present day, I’ve had opportunities…and turned them all down. As a matter of fact, it wasn’t even a conscious thought, i do not want to dishonor her(aka my future wife), myself or my God. I have a few things I know I am looking for, the only one i talk about publicly is the dark, if not jet black color of her hair. I have then also figured out some other things she needs to be..and i have been making sure I am also able to be or provide those things for her…and then i await to meet her to figure out what she needs in return. Once we are together, the stories we will make, for each other, for the Lord, will be epic. Folks may not know the power couple we are destined to be..Hell, i am sure I do not know the heights for His glory we are destined for, but the Lord does…
For those that know my heart…you know my passions…i’ve had two women that experienced them truly to the point listsed in the lyrics below. my older dauther’s mother and my late wife. There will be one more, and before i marry her, i will do everything in my power to make sure she understands and is prepared for what is to come. I have a series of private missives i have prepared for her once she is presented to me..to give her the chance to understand and stay or go..
here’s a slight peek:
Angel Eyes by Jared Benjamin
[Verse 1]
I, I’ve been trying to find the light
All of my life
But these shadows, they darken my mind
Lying, telling me that the sky
Has never been bright
But I haven’t heard them since you With the silhouette of fire
You showed me the truth
Red lips of desire
Kept me from the blue
Now there’s never a me without you
[Chorus]
So I’ll run through hell, hell
I’ll give you my life
I’ll stand by your side
Oh, I’ll run through hell, hell
Hell, I’d do it twice
To stay in the light
Of your angel eyes
[Verse 2]
No, no place left to go
’Til you reached out a hand
To a man that was made out of stone
Cold to the bone
And swore he was dead
He was cast out to burn until you With the silhouette of fire
You came out the blue
Red lips of desire
You whispered the truth
Now there’s never a me without you [
Chorus]
Oh, I’ll run through hell, hell
I’ll give you my life
I’ll stand by your side
Oh, I’ll run through hell, hell
Hell, I’d do it twice
To stay in the light
Of your angel eyes
[Bridge]
I lost my way
Sent up a flare
You answered me
Like a prayer
Like a prayer I lost my way
Sent up a flare
You answered me
Like a prayer
[Final Chorus]
I’ll run through hell, hell
I’ll give you my life
I’ll stand by your side
I’ll run through hell, hell
Hell, I’d do it twice
To stay in the light
Of your angel eyes