Monthly Archives:September 2015

I usually do not post things of a personal nature here but since my beliefs are part of my businesses foundation I feel this is appropriate. Since my wife died over memorial day I have been having to adjust to such a huge loss and trying to keep not only myself together but also keeping my family together, continuing to operate a business, and start a new advertising campaign. It has been hard to say the least. I have had folks tell me they do not know how I am continuing to go on. Honestly I almost didn’t. The first month was so chaotic I just wanted to shut down this business and go work elsewhere. The name of the business is Emmanuel Technology Consulting for a reason. i truly felt led not only to start this business but I felt led to honor my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ in doing so. That is why the business logos are very prevalent signs of the cross. That is why I am as open as I can be about things. It is also why I am willing to work with folks even to the point of “leaving money on the table”. I did not start this business to become wealthy but I did start this business to make a living for my family.

It has taken from My 26th until tonight for me to really be able to find a song that really inspires me without triggering my ongoing grief about the loss of my wife. Casting Crowns was one of my wifes favorite music groups of any genre and honestly one of mine as well. I had the following lyrics going through my head for the past week abut I could not recall what song it was from. Here is the lyric “snippett” that was running around in my head:

When You call my name, I’ll run to You
I’ll do anything You ask me to
Falling on my knees I worship You, my Lord
We give You glory
We give You glory
We give You glory
We give You glory

Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia

Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia

When You call my name, I’ll run to You
I’ll do anything You ask me to
Falling on my knees I worship You, my Lord

We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia

We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle
We give You glory

figure it out yet? It is by Casting Crowns and the song is “Glory”. I have been thanking the Lord for many things during these past few months. The fact that I know beyond a shadow of doubt that my wife is in heaven singing praises to the Lord. The fact that her death put me in a much better financial position to get badly needed repairs to our house completed. The fact that I am finally able to embark on a major marketing campaign bigger than anything I have ever attempted. This includes this website, new shirts, hats, signs for my vehicle, trade memberships, trade shows and other things. What has given me the inspiration for all of this? My own personal faith in Jesus Christ. I named the business after Him so I am letting Him guide my steps. My life is not anywhere back in even a few pieces but with His help it is coming together in so many ways it is hard to keep up with. New things are beginning, old things are being swept away and new things are being revealed. Is it easy? Absolutely not. Jesus says the walk of a believer is hard but He will never abandon me nor forsake me. I have seen this not only in my personal life also in my family, my business, and my own faith. He has carried me for the past couple of months although I just recently figured that out. I now know why those lyrics are in my head. Alle Alleluia Alle Alleluia to he who has carried me when I didn’t know it. Pastor Bill Mullins, wherever yhou might be now, I am striving to get that “bulldog faith” back. It looks like the Lord thinks it’s about time I do the same thing..:)

I was going to make a book sized blog post but for right now i simply do not wish to take the time to write one of my missives. I am not going to tag anyone because i do not want this to be construed as i am targeting any specific person. I have draft posts about various incidents i had at my old church. Dating all the way back to 2009(i think that’s the earliest one) to the using of CPS as a weapon against me and my family in 2012 to the latest long term conflict that has resulted in me leaving my old church. I also have many many folks saying they want to be involved in my girls lives and so on and so on.

The offers of help are appreciated trust me….the statements of wanting to stay in the girls lives i understand….but…..folks…..it’s time to back off and chill out.

Me and the girls are being suffocated by everyone wanting to stay close. We have not even had a chance to get our lives together as our own unit yet. I am not going to take the girls into a cave..cement the entrance..and never come out….but we need time to breathe. We need time to grieve. We need time to figure out our own family dynamic.

Allow me to explain something basic to everyone who interfaced with Heather Warren more than me. I have my limits on repeated requests for the same thing in rapid succession. If you ask me once wait…use patience. If it is in my facebook feed or my text messages I will get around to reading it. If i do not decide it needs action that second it will not get responded to or acted upon. If you start repeatedly asking the same thing over and over i will simply install a block with no warning nor explanation. Once i feel your request warrants my attention i will bring the block down and address the request.

After the new year the amount of requests i am going to address(much less honor) for travel are going to be curtailed. I want us(me, chloe and alessa) to have time to get our lives in sync. I am still figuring out chloe’s school things…the same for alessa’s. I need time to get to know them much more than i ever did. I have the job of two parents to do. I still do not have all of heather’s affairs in order and i need to concentrate on that. I am not overwhelmed per se but in order to finally get a handle on everything we all(the warren family) need to get our own affairs in order.

If you want to take this as me being isolationist that’s your prerogative but this is not my intent. This is not a permanent situation but it is for the short term future. Please continue to make your requests and such but if is a delay it is because it is not that requests turn for me to address yet. if it is a true emergency trust me the delay will be minimal..if any.