I usually do not post things of a personal nature here but since my beliefs are part of my businesses foundation I feel this is appropriate. Since my wife died over memorial day I have been having to adjust to such a huge loss and trying to keep not only myself together but also keeping my family together, continuing to operate a business, and start a new advertising campaign. It has been hard to say the least. I have had folks tell me they do not know how I am continuing to go on. Honestly I almost didn’t. The first month was so chaotic I just wanted to shut down this business and go work elsewhere. The name of the business is Emmanuel Technology Consulting for a reason. i truly felt led not only to start this business but I felt led to honor my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ in doing so. That is why the business logos are very prevalent signs of the cross. That is why I am as open as I can be about things. It is also why I am willing to work with folks even to the point of “leaving money on the table”. I did not start this business to become wealthy but I did start this business to make a living for my family.
It has taken from My 26th until tonight for me to really be able to find a song that really inspires me without triggering my ongoing grief about the loss of my wife. Casting Crowns was one of my wifes favorite music groups of any genre and honestly one of mine as well. I had the following lyrics going through my head for the past week abut I could not recall what song it was from. Here is the lyric “snippett” that was running around in my head:
When You call my name, I’ll run to You
I’ll do anything You ask me to
Falling on my knees I worship You, my Lord
We give You glory
We give You glory
We give You glory
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
When You call my name, I’ll run to You
I’ll do anything You ask me to
Falling on my knees I worship You, my Lord
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle
We give You glory
figure it out yet? It is by Casting Crowns and the song is “Glory”. I have been thanking the Lord for many things during these past few months. The fact that I know beyond a shadow of doubt that my wife is in heaven singing praises to the Lord. The fact that her death put me in a much better financial position to get badly needed repairs to our house completed. The fact that I am finally able to embark on a major marketing campaign bigger than anything I have ever attempted. This includes this website, new shirts, hats, signs for my vehicle, trade memberships, trade shows and other things. What has given me the inspiration for all of this? My own personal faith in Jesus Christ. I named the business after Him so I am letting Him guide my steps. My life is not anywhere back in even a few pieces but with His help it is coming together in so many ways it is hard to keep up with. New things are beginning, old things are being swept away and new things are being revealed. Is it easy? Absolutely not. Jesus says the walk of a believer is hard but He will never abandon me nor forsake me. I have seen this not only in my personal life also in my family, my business, and my own faith. He has carried me for the past couple of months although I just recently figured that out. I now know why those lyrics are in my head. Alle Alleluia Alle Alleluia to he who has carried me when I didn’t know it. Pastor Bill Mullins, wherever yhou might be now, I am striving to get that “bulldog faith” back. It looks like the Lord thinks it’s about time I do the same thing..:)