Category Archive:Christianity

It has been an interesting few months.  The Lord and life are taking me and have taken me into directions I would never have gone on my own.  It started with Bruce Conley asking me to assist in a restart at a church that is now called North Valley Church.  I was highly hesitant but because it was Bruce and the amount of respect I have for him I agreed to attend for at least 12 months.  So far in the past couple of months we have voted on a new pastor, his old church is going to assist our church in re-starting things, we are making plans for the new church’s name and legal entity, and in general getting things tidied up to start rebuilding this church community.  Pastor Dan comes from Summit Trace church in Frederick.  He is leaving there as head pastor and coming to restart North Valley.  I have seen a huge example of stepping out on faith with him leaving a well established, highly respected and well funded church to one that nearly was sold(land, building, everything).  Now Dan has stepped in and with some assistance from Summit Trace, he is taking a huge leap of faith.  That leap of faith continues with his choices for staffing.  A church(at least the Baptist ones I have been involved with) have the deacons and/or elders(one or the other..sometimes both if large enough), and then the trustees.  The trustees are the ones that tend to the physical(building, utilities..etc etc) and legal affairs of the church.  The next leap of faith I refer to is Pastor Dan asked me today if I would serve as a Trustee of North Valley Church.  I was blown away….in my eyes this is a HUGE honor…and a massive responsibility.  He said he chose me because I have run a business in one form or another for more than a decade(which is true)…I asked him if he was sure and he told me yes.  I agreed.  We have not had a vote yet..and that is forth coming…i am honored and humbled…and a bit nervous.  This is a huge responsibility and i intend to take it seriously…

I have been churchless for several years.  I have had many issues with churches and the people that attend them.  Just about every single one of them are fear infested, SJW/Churchian infested, and cannot handle someone who is willing to speak his mind when it goes against the grain.  A friend of mine whom I respect wanted me to try a church that is literally rebuilding after the membership was bamboozled by a crook that nearly literally stole the building and land right from under from them.  Luckily the scam was uncovered right before the title to the land was turned over.


It’s now been 6 weeks and I have been watching with great interest.  We have a church in Frederick called Summit Trace that has said they are going to help my church rebuild.  They have sent financial support and their lead pastor is coming to lead our church somewhere around the end of the year…as long as the congregation votes to confirm him as our pastor this upcoming Sunday.  I have been asked to provide IT and audio/sound mixing expertise to the church which is what I have been doing.  So far, so good.  We shall see how things progress moving forward.

One of the many tragedies of the past 4 years has been my inability to find a church home.  it’s been a long time and every church I have tried I do not feel like I belong there(including one i used to attend).  This morning, one of the few men claiming the title of Christian who actually deserve to wear that mantle, sent me the following:

I have a proposal regarding you blessing a church that is very much in need. I know you haven’t attached to a body yet, and one of my churches DESPERATELY needs some good tithing and serving believers to give things a boost. I thought of you and 3 others who have been “displaced” from their long term church homes as possible HUGE blessings to a very needy congregation.

Given my history with modern religion and modern Churchianity, i normally would reject a message like this out of hand…however This person is one I still have immense respect for and therefore i was instantly curious.  My previous main church I was considered a foundational member(whatever that meant as it didn’t mean what I thought it meant).  So now I get this message and my first thought is…Curiosity?  That’s not a William reaction that’s a spirit reaction.  so my reply to this inquiry?

you definitely have me curious…? I was a foundational member @(previous church) and it got me…well you know. I guess the fact that I am at least curious is a good sign?..?

Let’s see where this goes…Jesus is in charge on this one..left to my own devices I would not even explore this…:)

A short with more links to other posts of mine.  I have not had a great time with churches, or other Christians, to be blunt.  These days the SJW’s have taken over many things including christianity and turned it into something I(and others) call churchianity.  It is basically our version of the Pharisees…folks have turned the churches into power centers for their own self-service instead of biblical service and obedience.

I am not the easiest person to get along with.  I am highly opinionated, boisterous, hot-headed.  I am also extremely loyal…(only after you have earned my trust and respect…which is NOT an easy task)..and once you are a friend I will remain your friend unless you attack my family…then all bets are off.  I have been told, more than a few times, that I remind them of Peter.  A highly excitable follower of Jesus that can get himself into trouble with my passions.  This is true…I do my best..but I know who I am as well.  I will accept rebuke when shown, most of the time..i am far from perfect, I am wrong.  Overall, I am a loyal, high faith person with the tendency to be overly blunt and loud…:)  I have found many folks do not handle that well…and so I have to just stay in the background.  I have also found that being in the background is where i am the best.

I have one church I am thinking about returning to though.  i left not because I sensed a massive churchian infestation, but the church suddenly had massive leadership issues and called in another ministry I had never heard of.  My research into this ministry did not give me a good feeling…so i made my exit.  The leadership shakeup was so severe I was not sure the church itself would survive.  I recently inquired of a friend of mine that did attend(and, as i found out, still does) and they have moved into a building, the leadership has steadied up and it appears they are on solid footing.  I will check them out again this Sunday and see how things are going…hopefully things have settled down enough where I do not feel like I am walking into a hurricane.  Do I expect a 100% trouble free time..of course is a gathering of people…but I am hoping for at least minor waves instead of the tsunami I saw coming the last time I was there..:)

This incident took place late last year….it has taken me this long to calm down…as this was a man I respected in the local business community…no more.

I have to tell you…if my faith in Jesus wasn’t as strong as it was I would have left Christianity long ago.  Here recently I was attacked by a “Brother in Christ”.  One day I get a call from another friend of mine saying he was notified that our stream hosting arrangement was being cancelled.  Considering it was a free virtual machine and was given free bandwidth to host our stream(and the website as well) I was not upset.  Sooner or later that was going to be called back…I expected it.  What i did not expect was for the other person who owned the company to say I was doing things on the virtual machine that were never agreed to and that was why the agreement was being terminated.  SERIOUSLY?  I replied back angrily and demanded to know what i was doing that was not in the agreement(I had the first person CC’ed in all correspondence).  The reply was so comical…i was informed that the unauthorized activities was hosting two other websites in addition to the first website on the vm.  That’s when the first person jumped in and reminded company owner those other two sites were HIS ministry pages and he has PROOF that those two sites were authorized by the dude who was pulling the agreement…and that the attack on my integrity was not acceptable.

Ultimately we were given two weeks to move.  I had the stations entire online infrastructure moved to my hosting services in 24 hours.  I never received an apology for the unprovoked attack upon my integrity either.  The reliability of incidents like this only serve to reinforce my belief that many folks who claim Christianity…aren’t.  They are churchians at best and demon possessed at the worst.  It worked out well for me in the end.  I gained another web hosting client who is very satisfied with my services, and I am also gaining clients at a slow but steady pace.  The other business has since been sold(not because it was doing poorly…he wanted to finance another business he owns) but at least I know to steer clear of him and any business he touches.


Can a Christian wife withhold sex as a way to change her husband’s bad behavior?

Can sexual refusal be used by a wife to change her husband’s bad behavior? Does God allow sexual refusal as method for addressing wrong behavior on the part of a husband? Can bad behavior on the part of a husband justify a sexless marriage?

I recently received this very heartfelt comment from a Christian wife named Jenn and you can see how much she is hurting as you read this. I would be willing to bet there are many Christian wives that face a very similar scenario. The emotion runs deep in this story, and I think for some valid reasons.

Jenn’s story

“I agree that a sexless marriage is not God’s plan and that both parties should do everything in their power to maintain their physical union and covenant. However, I do not believe it is appropriate to give a blanket statement that denying sex in a marriage is sin. Sometimes, refusing sex becomes necessary as an effort to PRESERVE THE MARRIAGE when the husband repeatedly shrugs off spiritual leadership in the home, ignores the wife’s emotional needs, treats the wife as a roommate, does NOT consistently do the steps you outlined above (going on dates, upgrading around the house, show any type of affection, etc.) leaves ALL THE PARENTING TO THE WIFE, and then just expects to get laid!

Continuing to engage in intercourse under those circumstances is submitting to sexual abuse, even though there is no force or violence involved. Continuing to engage in intercourse for the wife leaves the door open for bitterness and resentment to fester. NO! The wife does NOT want to live in a sexless marriage, but neither does she want to be devalued and violated, either.
Yes, private communication was sought out to correct these issues… as was counseling that went on for 18 months… communication among godly, loving friends. To make matters worse, this person is an elder and a counselor in the church! Is all this grounds for divorce? Most say no. Does one uproot the children because one spouse is spiritually lazy and hypocritical? Difficult call.

Should the pleading spouse continue to allow the husband to treat her this way? Or should she stand her ground that she needs to be valued and cherished? The sexless part is actually the decision of the husband for refusing to correct his behavior out of pride.
So before you heap on condemnation, perhaps you should spend more time encouraging the husbands (or the wives, for that matter) to deeply investigate WHY there is no interest in sex in the first place.”

My response to Jenn and any other Christian wife who finds herself in this situation

I believe it is possible based on Jenn’s statements that her husband is sinning against her by not “knowing her” as the Bible commands him to do:

“Likewise, ye husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered.” – I Peter 3:7(KJV)

I wrote a post a while back entitled “10 ways to know your wife” – and these things are a challenge and admonition to all of us as Christian husbands (including myself). Yes we will fail as husbands and we may not do all these things as we should, but we need to get up each and every day and ask ourselves as men – “Am I communicating with my wife as I should? Do I know her concerns? Am I addressing areas where she needs my help?”

God knows that a wife needs her husband to know her on a spiritual, emotional and physical level. This is why he commanded husbands to dwell with their wives “according to knowledge”. A man cannot know his wife as God would have him to without talking to her, and listening to her on a daily basis.

Sometimes we as Christian husbands can become so wrapped up in our careers, hobbies or even our ministries (as this woman’s husband is a church elder and counselor) that we can become neglectful of the needs of our wives and children. This woman’s story should serve as reminder for each of us as believing husbands to make sure we are knowing our wives as God would have us to.

The second thing that Jenn’s husband might be doing is neglecting to honor his wife. This is a duty that God calls Christian husbands to. He does not appear to be honoring her in her role as his helpmeet. I also wrote a post on this subject entitled “12 Ways to Honor you wife” where I go into detail on how a man can honor his wife.

A big part of honoring one’s wife – is to show her that she is valued and to praise her for her work in the home. It is also about making sure that her children are respectful of her. From what I saw in this woman’s sad account – it appears her husband may not be doing any of this. This story should serve as admonishment to all of us as Christian husbands how it makes our wives feel when we don’t know them(talk to them and listen to them) and when we don’t honor them(value them and praise them).

It appears that if this woman’s account is accurate – her Christian husband has been neglecting many of his duties to her (and perhaps his children as well).

Is withholding sex a tool that God allows a wife to use to change her husband’s behavior?

Jenn as well as many other women (Christian and non-Christian alike) believes that withholding sex is valid and justified tool when a husband is neglecting his duties to her and his children. But as sad as these types of stories are – two wrongs never make a right. God does not allow for sex to be withheld as a tool to modify bad behavior, or to encourage right behavior on the part of a spouse (either the husband or the wife).

“Let the husband render unto the wife due benevolence: and likewise also the wife unto the husband.

The wife hath not power of her own body, but the husband: and likewise also the husband hath not power of his own body, but the wife.

Defraud ye not one the other, except it be with consent for a time, that ye may give yourselves to fasting and prayer; and come together again, that Satan tempt you not for your incontinency.” – I Corinthians 7:3-4

“Therefore as the church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands in every thing.” – Ephesians 5:24 (KJV)

The Scriptures are clear in the area of sex that a wife is to willingly give her body to her husband, she does not have the power to deny him or withhold sex from him. The Bible says she is to submit to her husband in “every thing”, and this includes in the area of sexuality.

The only way sex can be halted or denied in marriage is by mutual agreement to do so for a short time. People talk about consent in regards to sex all the time. Biblically speaking sex is only to occur in marriage. But in the context of marriage, consent is about ceasing from having sex for short period (mutually agreeing to not have sex). Consent is not about ALLOWING sex as sex is a duty and responsibility in marriage – it is a central part of the marriage covenant that you freely give your body to your spouse for the purposes of sex.

I have talked in previous posts about a husband having the right to discipline his wife, to motivate her to repent and change her bad behavior. But a husband is never allowed to use sexual denial to his wife as method of discipline. So for instance, if a man’s wife keeps denying him and then eventually she comes to him for sex – he is not allowed to deny her because she previously denied him.

The Bible tells us we should not repay evil for evil:

“Recompense to no man evil for evil..” – Romans 12:17 (KJV)

A wife in the same way is not allowed to deny or withhold sex from her husband in an effort to reform his bad behavior. When a wife withholds sex from her husband because of his bad behavior in other areas – this is a textbook example repaying evil for evil and God will not bless such actions by a wife.

In fact when we look at sex from the wife’s role, this is just one part of her overall submission to her husband. God does not allow a woman to stop submitting to her husband in any area of her life (including sex) in order to reform his bad behavior – except if he asks her to engage in an immoral or sinful activity.

But doesn’t giving a husband sex when he behaves wrongly encourage bad behavior?

Many women ask this question, and I think Jenn is inferring it by her comments above. The answer is that it is never wrong to do what God has commanded, in fact it is ALWAYS right to do what God has commanded. Short of a husband asking his wife to engage in a sinful activity – she is always to submit to him (including submitting her body to him for sex).

The Bible tells us this:

“Not rendering evil for evil, or railing for railing: but contrariwise blessing; knowing that ye are thereunto called, that ye should inherit a blessing.” – I Peter 3:9 (KJV)

In God’s view if a woman’s husband is treating her sinfully by neglecting his duties to her, she is to repay this evil behavior by blessing him with her continued submission, even in willingly giving her body to him for sex.

I know what I just said sounds CRAZY from a human perspective. But this is God’s way, not man’s way.

I completely realize that Jenn’s head is probably spinning right now and I truly feel for her situation with her husband. If she does not withhold sex, but blesses her husband with her body – freely and willingly won’t this tell him that everything is ok and she is fine with his neglectful behavior?

No – and here is the reason why. Jenn and any other woman can continue to bring her grievances about his neglect of her and her children. Nothing stops her from doing that. I think it would really make a man’s head spin, that his wife brings her grievance before him in a respectful manner in one hour, and later that evening willingly gives herself to him when he initiates sex with no attitude or hesitation. This can be a powerful tool for change in a husband, when he sees that his wife continues to submit to him, even though she has legitimate grievances with him.

Isn’t this abusive behavior?

Jen said this about submitting her husband sexually under these conditions:

“Continuing to engage in intercourse under those circumstances is submitting to sexual abuse, even though there is no force or violence involved.”

This is not sexual abuse for her husband to have sex with her while neglecting her legitimate needs in other areas.

Her husband’s behavior in other areas may definitely be inconsiderate, neglectful and sinful by Biblical standards. But him asking for sex and her yielding to him for sex(regardless of his failings outside the bedroom) is NOT sexual abuse. I have said this in previous articles and I will say it again here. Christian wives need to be very careful of using terms like “abuser”, “rapist” and “molester” when it comes to their sexual relations with their husbands. Unless a husband actually rapes a woman(has forcible sex with a woman he is not married to), touches a person other than his wife in a sexual manner, or actually physically abuses his wife, his children or others these terms have no place in these kinds of discussions.

Let be clear as I always have to be in these posts. If a husband forces himself sexually upon his wife, Biblically speaking this is not rape but it could be abuse. So in that case it might be legitimate to call the husband an abuser, but it would still not be right from a Biblical perspective to call him a rapist.

But based on this story, there does not seem to be any forcible sex going on.

But won’t allowing sex to continue cause bitterness in the wife?

Jenn said this about bitterness:

“Continuing to engage in intercourse for the wife leaves the door open for bitterness and resentment to fester.”

I think we could safely say, and Jenn would probably concede that bitterness toward her husband has definitely “festered” in her heart. God says this about bitterness:

“Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice” – Ephesians 4:31

Someone once said of bitterness, “Bitterness is like talking poison when you are mad at someone for wronging you, and then hoping they will die from it”. I have many men write me with bitterness in their hearts towards their wives over their wife’s sexual denial – some say some very hateful things toward them and I have to remind them that they need to let go of that bitterness, that it is a sin against God, their spouse and really their own bodies (because it hurts you when you are bitter).

This same truth would apply to Jenn and other Christian women that are dealing with husbands who are sinning against them by neglecting their duties.

A wife needs to understand the source of her bitterness towards her husband about sex

“Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord: Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled; “ – Hebrews 12:14-15(KJV)

If you don’t understand the root of your bitterness as a Christian wife, then you will never be able to remove it. The reason you grow bitter and resentful toward your husband when he initiates sex is this – you believe he did not earn it.

Let me put this another way. It is very easy for us as men to shut our wives out, to stop talking to our wives when they deny us sexually. It is easy for us to grow bitter and think – “She wants me to sit down and talk with her when every time I go to touch her she tells me “not tonight honey”. But our wives do not have to earn the right to talk to us by having sex with us. Talking to our wives, whether we feel like it or not is a duty of every husband.

In the same way as a Christian wife you must realize the truth that your husband does not have to earn sex with you by talking to you(as he should), honoring you(as he should) and doing other nice things for you. He has a right to sex with you because of the vows you made to him and before God.

When you as a Christian wife let this truth really settle in your heart, then you will find that you are no longer bitter at your husband when he goes to have sex with you – even when he is not doing right in other areas.

Does the husband’s behavior warrant divorce?

A husband being “spiritually lazy and hypocritical” is not grounds for Biblical divorce. Now if a man fails to provide for his wife and children and just sits on a couch all day while they lose their home and starve that may be another issue. But nothing I have seen in this story would allow for Biblical divorce.

A wife is not responsible to discipline her husband

A wife is not Biblically responsible (or allowed) to discipline her husband. The husband is spiritually responsible for his wife and his children and as the head of his wife and his home he has the right to attempt to discipline. As I stated in previous posts when it comes to the wife I don’t believe physical discipline is warranted or prescribed by the Scriptures. But other types of non-physical discipline like taking credit cards away, or stopping household upgrades may be used as discipline.

God does not hold a wife responsible for her husband’s wrong behavior, he only holds her responsible for her own behavior.

A situation like this can be extremely frustrating for a Christian wife, and we can see that all throughout Jenn’s post. But she and any other wives facing this type of situation needs to make sure they take a step back and realize they are not their husband’s mother, they are his wife.

What recourse can a wife take in this situation?

I think we can see that scripturally speaking a wife has no right to discipline her husband for sinful behavior and she does not have the right to stop submitting to him in any area, including in the area of sex because of his sinful behavior. To do so amounts to repaying evil for evil – something that is very plainly condemned in the Scriptures.

But a wife can continue to bring her grievances to her husband in a respectful way. She can ask her husband to attend counseling as this woman did.

But what if the husband never changes his ways?

Jenn would most likely respond to my last comment that “I tried counseling with him for 18 months and nothing changed! He says he will change with the counselor but he comes home and nothing changes!”

Is it possible that even if Jenn repents of her bitterness, and submits herself in all ways(including sexually) to her husband that he will still not change his ways and do what God would have him do as a husband? Unfortunately the answer is yes – he may never change his ways.

Also it can help to realize that you are not the only woman or man that faces these issue of being mistreated by their spouse. I often get emails from Christian husbands asking if they can divorce their wives for less than Biblical reasons.

These are some of the things they ask about:

They ask if they can divorce their wives for belittling them and disrespecting them – the Bible says no.

They ask if they can divorce their wives for going against their wishes and disobeying – the Bible says no.

They ask if their wife is giving them sex, but with a bad attitude and she just lies there like a dead fish can they divorce their wives – the Bible says no.

They ask if their wife is too involved in her career and other activities outside the home can they divorce their wife? Unless their wife is sexually denying them or cheating on them they cannot divorce her for being too involved in her career.

The truth is that we live in a sin cursed world and sometimes people do not submit themselves to God and repent. Sometimes our spouses have horrible attitudes, or they are neglectful of our feelings. Sometimes spouses are extremely selfish.

I believe though in these cases where husbands are not doing what God says they should do for their wives – Christian wives can get through this difficulty by depending on the Lord, and recognizing that their submission to their husband, is really them submitting to God.

“Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord.” – Ephesians 5:22

So perhaps from a human perspective, your husband has done nothing to earn your submission. But would say you don’t owe God your submission? It is God who is commanding you to submit to your husband.

What Jenn and other Christian wives need to do in this situation

Acknowledge your hurt and your feelings of disappointment with your husband, don’t bury it, don’t repress it. Give it to God, Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.(I Peter 5:7)

Pray and ask God to forgive you for any bitterness you are harboring in your heart toward your husband. Pray that God will strengthen you to be able to submit to and please your husband with a right heart and a right attitude. Pray that God will change your husband’s heart and reveal his sin to him so perhaps he will be the husband that God meant him to be.

Pray that God will continually remind you that your submission to your husband is really submission to God himself.  When you submit to your husband it pleases God, especially when he knows it is hard for you to do it because of your husband’s behavior.

All of us need God each day, we can’t live this Christian life in our own strength.

I recently bought a newsed(thanks to Chris K..I told him I was stealing this one)…Ford Escape./  I am VERY thankful to the Lord for giving me the means to purchase it and I have noticed something.  In terms of tidiness…i take MUCH better care of the truck than i ever did for my other two vehicles that I basically inherited.  I then came to a startling revelation.  I do not know when, how, or where….but it is time for me to leave the house I am currently living in.  Now i will just wait for the Lord’s guidance on where, when, and how this move is going to happen…and to start seriously preparing for it.

Anytime a title like this gets put online folks are filled with skepticism…it’s understandable, most folks have never truly come face to face with a real demon.  This includes most pastors, faith leaders, etc etc etc.  Demons do exist..not in the Hollywood way but they do exist.  The picture I am going to show you is one that’s been everywhere…but most folks were confused by this person’s appearance.  Normally I would write this off to just a person with a serious narcissistic personality traits….but something stopped me:

For those with the gift of discernment you will instantly “feel” what is going on here.  This person is not acting of his own accord but of the demon that is possessing him.  I personally have had several dealings with demons…back when i was a Druid.  I honestly had no idea what i was doing in the world of the occult at first…once I started attracting and then inviting demons(I never knew they were demons until my reconversion back to Christianity…not Churchianity which is everywhere) did i truly understand what I had gotten myself into.  Demons do not often show themselves this outwardly which is why most times when I see this I write it off as a narcissist…but this time my spirit told me…hold have dealt with this type of entity before.  Do not assume in the future if you see someone act this way that they are possessed…It is rare that demons actually show themselves in this way…but it is striking when they decide to do so….

It’s been nearly 3 years since my wife died.  I have been in what I would call a personal morass.  I have seemingly been stuck in one spot…unable to move forward.  I was then blessed with a good job opportunity…but the sacrifice required was immense.  I had to sacrifice my nearly 15 years of self-employment.  This self-employment I had built from nothing up to what it was when I received the job offer.  That was a full stop moment for me.  I had to pray and honestly think about this.  Eventually I knew this was the right choice…but it was a hard one in terms of burning down everything I had built for nearly 2 decades.  The Lord has a habit of doing that…how much do you trust me Christian?  Are you willing to give up something very meaningful to you to trust in me?  That is the overarching theme of the Christian walk.  The job paid well and the benefits were the best I have ever seen…and better than many in my circle have ever seen.  When that employment ended I now had no additional income from the business I burned down and was in an even worse financial prospect going forward.  This time I had no doubts about what to do….I sat and waited on the Lord to guide me.  Eventually it was putting an application on Ziprecruiter…the result was a phone call within about 10 minutes.  Now I once again wait on the Lord to see where I am headed.

The hardest thing to get through has not been the death of my wife itself…but the lingering after effects.  I learned of something called widow’s fog or widow’s brain…and it describes perfectly the issues I personally encounter on a daily basis.  For a while it has bothered me…i began to wonder about my own sanity.  Luckily one of my moms friends lost her husband and she posted about widow’s brain on Facebook.  At least I know this is not a permanent condition..:)

Some sage advice fro my mom:  Think positive thoughts and don’t let any negative thoughts get in your mind. Concentrate on only good news and getting the job. Give it all over to God and just follow HIS path. I know HE is working for you. It is what it is…this could definitely be the door that HE is opening for you. Be thinking about what you are going to say about why you left. As someone who hired and fired that will be a very important answer. As a suggestion, don’t even suggest that it was anyone’s fault at all…you may just say that their was a personality conflict that couldn’t be resolved…which is true and this way they won’t know if you quit or were let go…not a lie, just stating the facts…don’t say any more than you are asked about that is my suggestion. You are definitely well qualified and now all you have to do is pray that God will work with you to take comments and/or suggestions without commenting anything…just remain quiet if necessary. Unfortunately this is not our personalities, but sometimes we have to remain quiet.

A song has been put into my mind that is oddly relevant to my life.  The name of the son is Bridges Burn by needtobreathe.  I heard as the trailing music on Chicago Fire.  There are several poignant statements in this song.  The  lyrics talk about wanting to watch burn all their bridges.  When you are intense mental pain and you feel you cannot stand want to relieve it…somehow.  Ultimately you want there to be some point to your pain..a lesson, an eventual relief, something.  You jsut want it gone..bury it..cover it up…destroy it…something to gain freedom from whatever pain is being felt.  Folks turn to multiple remedies:  Drugs, addiction, isolation, murder, suicide, jsut to name a few.  I am blessed that the Lord has given me what has been called a “bulldog faith” that i simply refuse to let go of.  It has been my lifeline more than once and continues to sustain me.  Multiple times I have hung onto that faith…Jesus is good…He has carried me when I simply could not move anymore.  There is nothing that truly makes life easier…we all have huge trails we face everyday….it is simply how you get through it…without getting permanently stuck…or worse..going down into a pit.  If you are feeling stuck..or worse going into a pit…keep one thing in mind.  Jesus will help you..even when you screw up…and you will…This second pit I am in is one of my own doing because I simply didn’t keep my trap shut.  Jesus has come beside me and is comforting me..but he is also forgiven me for my mistake and has already told me he has something else coming…I know wait to see what my heavenly Father has for me.  it’s time to move forward…:)

The lyrics go as follows:

Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo
Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo
Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo
Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo dooIt’s time for moving on
There’s some things you can’t forget
It’s sinking us like a stone
I just wanna bury it

I wanna watch all my bridges burn
Stand in the rain ’til the page is turned
Dance in the light of a lesson learned, lesson learned
I wanna leave everything that hurts
Never go back to the way we were
Set it on fire, baby, watch it burn, watch it burn

Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo
Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo

Out into the unknown
We traded in our regrets
Not gonna go alone
‘Cause we’re gonna finish this

I wanna watch all my bridges burn
Stand in the rain ’til the page is turned
Dance in the light of a lesson learned, lesson learned
I wanna leave everything that hurts
Never go back to the way we were
Set it on fire, baby, watch it burn, watch it burn

Burn it all, set me free
And let the smoke blow on out to the sea
I need to find somewhere I can believe
I need to know there’s a chance we can be
Burn it all, set me free
And let the smoke blow on out to the sea
I need to find somewhere I can believe
I need to know there’s a chance we can be

I wanna watch all my bridges burn
Stand in the rain ’til the page is turned
Dance in the light of a lesson learned, lesson learned
I wanna leave everything that hurts
Never go back to the way we were
Set it on fire, baby, watch it burn, watch it burn

Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo
Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo
Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo
Da-doo, da-doo, doo doo doo, doo doo

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I have been doing a fair amount of commenting on Facebook.  However this post needs more formatting control than what i can do on Facebook easily.

I am not a total MGTOW type but I can see some of their points.  There lies fault on both sides in the current male and anti-male conflict going on.  The death of my wife has forced me to look at myself, about my shortcomings, and examine some of my beliefs but mostly reaffirm beliefs I have always held but laid dormant for decades.

this is an interesting debate:

One excerpt I am posting here:

And there is something else here as well – I have nothing to back this up except my gut – but I suspect a subversive ‘fake it til you make it’ dynamic would also come into play here. Long a mantra men new to Game, it think it would also act on women, but less consciously; for I suspect it is hard to fake femininity for any length of time without actually becoming feminine. Just about all women have the true feminine inside them – and faking it would inevitably tap into it. I suspect that once they see the power of their femininity (and make no mistake, femininity and submission ARE female power, in relation to men) many would continue down the road to authenticity. Just like men, many women too have never experienced true femininity.

Since men have checked out..from my generation to the current generation mentioned about, women are beginning to realize(again) that this ultra militant anti-male propaganda has taken their choice of truly mate-worthy men away. How do they find them now? They get em 18 or even younger…when they can be shaped and molded(or so they think) into their vision of “perfect men”. However since women who are now acting with some sense of true feminism…laced with heavy doses of desperation…think they can mold these young boys into their version of men…but they inevitably get outed because young men and boys are braggarts…always have been..and no amount of anti-male ideology is going to change that.  Be careful what you wish for ladies.

The paragraph above is very revealing for the enormous spike in male pedophilia. Because women are screaming various anti-male slogans, using the state to brand men rapists, deadbeats, among other things(even moreso if you are white..and State forbid if you are Christian…and GOD forbid if you aren’t a Churchian)…and using the power of the gov’t to make it financially, mentally, and emotionally uneconomical to bother with women they have gone to things they can find that are “good enough”. What many anti-males do not understand is men do not desire perfection..good enough is just that…good enough. If there are no other options available we will check out and be perfectly fine with “good enough”.  Men will always be on the lookout for something better but it will be evaluated thoroughly, over a long time, and be looked at with abject and open skepticism until it is proven to be better than what is available. That can be years, decades, or even a lifetime in the making.  For some men the thought…or the reality of being alone without a mate leads to the same destructive desperation that has led to the rapid rise in male pedophilia.  Whereas women are emotional, and often mercurial creatures; men are much more logical, long term thinking, and objective. There are exceptions of course…and those exceptions are what make things interesting.(Of course there are those in both genders that are jsut mentally ill in whatever way..this post is about rational folks).

My take on things? Defcon 2 right now. I am on the lookout for future disturbances and doing my best to build up myself to be self-sustaining….if that means having to work two jobs(my business and another job…or taking a full time job long enough to get 100% out of debt and then get back into self-employment) so be it. The more i dig into things the more my radars go off and the more cautious i get in terms of my long term viability. I have two kids to provide for…the gov’t is NOT a viable long term solution(never has been actually)..and so far i have been able to stay off the gov’t welfare teat.  Due to many factors I am only concerned with getting my girls onward in life ready for things to come.  I cannot give them everything but they will have the benefit of my life experiences(which is much more vast than many folks realize).  Conceited?  You can call it that…but i know what i know.  Those few that have taken the time to REALLY get to know me(and there are very very few) know i say this with confidence..not false pride.  Divine intervention will be required for me to deviate from my singular course of action(in terms of relationships with the fairer sex) or most churches for that matter.  I have not lost my faith in Jesus.  To the contrary, it has been immensely strengthened.  My biggest hurts, most vicious attacks, and biggest problems have been from, plotted by, and carried out by Churchians masquerading as Christians.  Real Christians are few and far between.  To the few I actually respect, keep up the good work in your own way.


I have been asked what I was feeling right after Heather died.  The days immediately after her death I do not remember much. I literally slept nearly 24 hours the morning I somehow drove myself home and then collapsed on my bed with no concern about anything else. The next month is a blur as well. Over the intervening 24 months I still struggled with recalling my feelings..or if I had any. Now it’s just over two years from her death and I heard one song that describes how I felt pretty well.
I have also been asked after the obvious trauma that put me through, how have I moved forward?  One name is all you need to know.  Jesus Christ.   I can tell you this…if I did not have my Jesus in my life I am not sure I would have been able to move forward in the timeframe I have.  I still have my nights where I break down.  There are some days I just fall apart.  While I try to not let my girls see me lose control there are some days I cannot help it.  The number of days I break down either in private or in eyesight of my girls are decreasing…but I am not sure it will ever cease.  What I do know is that with Jesus at my side and as my guide I will make it through this life.
All the Kings Horses
I knock the ice from my bones
Try not to feel the cold
Caught in the thought of that time
When everything was fine, everything was mine
Everything was fine, everything was mine
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
Run with my hands on my eyes
Blind, but I’m still alive
Free to go back on my own
But is it still a home when you’re all alone
Is it still a home when you’re all alone
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
There is a reason I’m still standing
I never knew if I’d be landing
And I will run fast, outlast
Everyone that said no…
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Couldn’t put me back together again

I made a post last year about how the push to put Narcan in the hands of all first responders was going to enable more overdoses.  I am not saying this is the only reason but it is one of the biggest reasons.  The economic circumstances for so many people has not changed…or in many cases has gotten worse.  This has been part of the reason the overdose problem is getting even worse.  Now as of June 1, 2017 anyone can get narcan without a doctor’s prescription.  This also does not include any medical training requirements, only a crash course in symptom recognition and how to administer this powerful drug.  So now this drug is now being carried around by not even first responders but regular civilians.  I can hear the , “what if you had overdosed.  Wouldn’t you want somebody to help?”  My answer?  Not unless you were an EMT or paramedic with proper medical training.

Keep in mind an opioid overdose is rarely spontaneous.  It is a choice to take more and more of the drug..unless you are addicted to the point where you can’t get away from it….”doing it for fun”.  I am not against drug addiction intervention treatment either.  HOwever this push for Narcan everywhere only enables folks to continue to make poor choices.  As with most “feel good” response plans this has disastrous second order effects.  For those who are truly addicted…I am all for this lifesaving substance…as long as it is followed up with appropriate intervention by appropriate medical professionals.  Narcan everywhere however is only going to enable the further explosion of overdosing by those who wish to not be responsible for their own actions.

I think Narcan should be only administered with either an actual prescription or by properly medically trained first responders.  This gives the best balance between getting the drug to those who really need it vs to those who do it because they no longer have to fear the results of poor choices.  I am a big proponent of personal responsibility.  If you make a poor conscious choice…you should suffer the consequences of that choice.  So if an ambulance cannot get to you in time..even if you were hooked by a “friend” or some other reason…i am sorry..too bad.  Yes this means folks are going to die…it also means that those who choose this poor choice of action will suffer the consequences of said poor choices.

I’ll give you a personal example.  I am a type 2 diabetic because of years of poor eating habits and lack of physical activity due to my chosen field of expertise.  I do not expect “diabetic drugs everywhere” like narcan folks are asking for as I am now dealing with my poor choices and having to change my lifestyle.  Obamacare took my insurance away from me so I am out of meds and the physical alone is $700.  The medication is not very expensive.  I am not moaning here about my poor choice…I am living with the consequences of it.  Why do I not have insurance?  I make too much for subsidies(which do nothing to offset the monthly cost) and the costs of coverage right now would cost me more than 1k/month.  That’s more than my mortgage of $755/month.  I literally cannot afford two mortgage payments.  What does that 1k/month get me?  I have a deductible of 10k first of all.  This means i have to spend 10k in medical expenses out of pocket before bronze kick in..which is 60%.  That insurance does not cover the following:

  1.  any out of pocket expense the physician charges.
  2. no coverage for balance billing(which many providers charge)
  3. no coverage for any other fees, co pay, other medical charges, equipment charges that are charged.

Only after 10k in deductibles does the 60% coverage kick in.  All in all I am looking at 21k per year before I get ANY coverage.  That’s more than 45% of my GROSS income(mind you Social Security is considered taxable gross income and counts in these calculations).  As I am self-employed my taxes alone take a majority of the rest.  So I have two choices.  Shut down my business, work for somebody else who may or may not take my family dynamic into account, or reduce my income to a point that I can get all of the gov’t assistance(ebt, medicaid, food stamps.etc etc etc) and basically become a ward of the state.  I do not want to live like the latter and I do not want my kids learning to live like that either.  Right now any job I have been able to find would have any gains in income be immediately offset by the massive increase in daycare costs for my youngest that would be incurred by me taking a job.  One day a solution that is acceptable(either my business will grow to the point this is not an issue or i will be able to find a job with enough extra take home pay that daycare expenses will be manageable) will come up.  Until then I will soldier along with help from friends and family…but most importantly from Jesus Christ himself.

For those who are overdosing because you do not have to suffer the consequences for your poor choices…shame on you.  The folks in this society who live with their choices have zero sympathy for you.  For the ones who have a truly devastating medical condition?  I truly hope you get the help you need before it’s too late.  Right now resources for you are being taken by those who wish to abscond from their personal responsibility.

The Southern Baptist Convention, if this proclamation is ratified, will have gone from one of the most biblically based protestant denominations to squarely within the churchian theology.

Resolution for the 2017 SBC Annual Meeting – Condemning the Alt-Right & White Nationalism

Resolution On The Condemnation of the “Alt-Right” Movement and the Roots of White Supremacy

Submitted to the Resolutions Committee for the
SBC Annual Meeting, Phoenix, AZ, June 13-14,  2017
by William Dwight McKissic, Sr.

WHEREAS, Scripture teaches that from one man God made every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined their appointed times and the boundaries of their habitation (Acts 17:26); and

WHEREAS, the prophet Isaiah foresaw the day when the Lord would judge between the nations and render decisions for many people (Isaiah 2:4); and

WHEREAS, the Psalmist proclaims the Kingdom is the Lord’s, and He rules over the nations; and

WHEREAS, the promise of heaven includes the eternal blessings of the Tree of Life for God’s people, which includes the healing of the nations that comes from the leaves of that tree; and

WHEREAS, the supreme need of the world is the acceptance of God’s teachings in all the affairs of men and nations, and the practical application of His law of love; and

WHEREAS, all Christians are under obligation to seek to make the will of Christ supreme in our own lives and in human society, opposing all forms of racism, selfishness, and vice, and bringing government and society as a whole under the sway of the principles of righteousness, truth, and brotherly love; and

WHEREAS, just societies will order themselves as free men and women and organize at various times and for various purposes to establish political order and give consent to legitimate government; and

WHEREAS, the liberty of all nations to authorize such governments will, at times, allow for the rise of political parties and factions whose principles and ends are in irreconcilable conflict with the principles of liberty and justice for all; and

WHEREAS, there has arisen in the United States a growing menace to political order and justice that seeks to reignite social animosities, reverse improvements in race relations, divide our people, and foment hatred, classism, and ethnic cleansing; and

WHEREAS, this toxic menace, self-identified among some of its chief proponents as “White Nationalism” and the “Alt-Right,” must be opposed for the totalitarian impulses, xenophobic biases, and bigoted ideologies that infect the minds and actions of its violent disciples; and

WHEREAS, the roots of White Supremacy within a “Christian context” is based on the so-called “curse of Ham” theory once prominently taught by the SBC in the early years—echoing the belief that God through Noah ordained descendants of Africa to be subservient to Anglos—which provided the theological justification for slavery and segregation. The SBC officially renounces the “curse of Ham” theory in this Resolution; now be it therefore

RESOLVED, that the Southern Baptist Convention, meeting in Phoenix, AZ, June 13-14, 2017, denounces every form of “nationalism” that violates the biblical teachings with respect to race, justice, and ordered liberty; and be it further

RESOLVED, that we reject the retrograde ideologies, xenophobic biases, and racial bigotries of the so-called “Alt-Right” that seek to subvert our government, destabilize society, and infect our political system; and be finally

RESOLVED, that we earnestly pray, both for those who lead and advocate this movement and those who are thereby deceived, that they may see their error through the light of the Gospel, repent of their perverse nationalism, and come to know the peace and love of Christ through redeemed fellowship in the Kingdom of God, which is established from every nation, tribe, people and tongue.

The problem is the author either doesn’t know the Bible at all or is willingly ignorant of it….right before my wife died she had mentioned she was beginning to have serious reservations about both the church she(not I though) was attending and the broader SBC as a whole.  Rather than re-invent the wheel when it comes to analyzing this proclamation I found another post of someone who has already done it.

This is a very good analysis of the most recent proclamation brought before the SBC for ratification:

Today is a sad day.

“Resolution for the 2017 SBC Annual Meeting – Condemning the Alt-Right & White Nationalism”

   It is important to be precise when delicate situations like this exist. As I begin to write this response to the Southern Baptist Convention’s Resolution that was posted on May 28th, 2017, I pray for the Holy Spirit to guide my thoughts and to convict those peoples who happen to lay their eyes on my words to be convicted and see the truth within them.

It is time to dissect this resolution and introduce some context.

The Southern Baptists have been in decline.

1. Their Birth rates are down.
2. Their Evangelism rates are down.
3. They don’t have an accurate grasp on the condition of their organization, statistically, as they are missing data from 1/4th of their congregations.
4. People are giving less to them
5. In contrast to their decline in population and wealth, they have been steadily growing the NUMBER of churches for the last 18 years, with another 479 (1%) net growth last year. This indicates a tendency to focus on Churchianism instead of being Followers of Christ.
6. More liberal churches within the convention contain the largest amount of baptisms.

   I’ve only been a Christian for about 9 months. Within those months, I have hopped around Central Virginia trying to find a church which is not Social Justice Converged nor lacking in truthful scriptural backing. Initially, I felt a draw towards Baptist churches. Disturbingly, I also felt an intuition that there was a disharmonious spirit in the air within these churches. I concluded that I simply did not have a large enough sample size to formulate a coherent reason why I felt that. With this new resolution, I now have enough information. The corruption has spread to the top.

In their attempt to appeal to the masses, the same masses which would condemn Jesus Christ to Death, they have rejected Him and have become blind.

Now for the line-by-line analysis to back up my rhetoric.

Resolution on The Condemnation of the “Alt-Right” Movement and the Roots of White Supremacy
Submitted to the Resolutions Committee for the SBC Annual Meeting, Phoenix, AZ, June 13-14, 2017
By William Dwight McKissic,Sr.

   The use of air quotes indicates that the author does not understand what the Alt-Right even encompasses. Bait and Switch snake-tongue tactic used, swapping out White Nationalism with White Supremacy, even though they are different conceptual models. Note: I do not endorse White Nationalism because it is an incoherent model, seeing as there is no such thing as the “White Nation”. White Supremacy is also dumb, primarily because the differences between the white nations are too substantive and broad to categorize as a single entity of supremacy, although there are also ethical conclusions which are foolish in regards to the supremacy of any people over another. I am not up to date on church politics, but it appears that the Resolutions Committee has an opportunity to reject this resolution on June 13-14, 2017. I advise that they do so due to the lack of precision detailed within this document. The author, William Dwight McKissic, Sr. has not taken the time to understand exactly what the Alt-Right ideology is, and therefore is not making correct conclusions. Although he has already been caught in snake-tongue tactics and I haven’t even begun to look at the body of the resolution. A couple minutes of intensive research reveals that he has not been known to make wise decisions in his expression of his theology, and I would posit that this resolution is within that same category.

WHEREAS, Scripture teaches that from one man God made every nation of mankind to live on all the face of the earth, having determined their appointed times and the boundaries of their habitation (Acts 17:26); and

This piece of scripture is relevant only in pointing out that nations do, in fact, exist, and that they were made by God himself. It is important to note that directly following Genesis 10 to which Acts 17:26 is obviously referencing, The nations then unified in the story of the Tower of Babel in Genesis 11. One can properly infer that this has been the most diverse place in regards to nations, in the history of the biblical story. What did God do? He dispersed them and confused their language. It is God-willed that the nations exist separately from each other, and not mixed together in Unity and in the name of Diversity and speaking the same language. The natural objection would be Galatians 3:28 where Paul says that there is neither Jew nor Greek. If you stop the analysis there, then I would agree with the objection. But we do not stop the analysis there. In context, Paul is talking about how we are not held captive under the old law due to our justification through faith in the Lord Christ Jesus, and because of this, the faith is not limited to any singular nation, class, or sex. If we are to take Paul’s words as an indication that when one becomes a Christian, they immediately lost all nationality, then we must also conclude that the concept of slavery and freedom are no longer in existence when one becomes a Christian (thus rationalizing slavery) and that there neither female nor male Christians exist. Now, Acts 17:26 also gives a hint to how we should conceptually model the nations. This verse says that God determined the boundaries of their habitation, which would lead to the conclusion that the nation is not talking about the legal structure above a people, but instead about the people themselves.

WHEREAS, the prophet Isaiah foresaw the day when the Lord would judge between the nations and render decisions for many people (Isaiah 2:4); and

The only comment I have upon this reference to scripture is the fact that we are observably not in the day when nation shall not lift up sword against nation, and I also propose that, as the scripture says, be God who determines that day, not us.

WHEREAS, the Psalmist proclaims the Kingdom is the Lord’s, and He rules over the nations; and

Yes, but a nation can refuse to follow his commands

WHEREAS, the promise of heaven includes the eternal blessings of the Tree of Life for God’s people, which includes the healing of the nations that comes from the leaves of that tree; and

Do not fall into the false song of utopia on Earth, for it is in Heaven that this healing will be done.

WHEREAS, the supreme need of the world is the acceptance of God’s teachings in all the affairs of men and nations, and the practical application of His law of love; and

Yes, which must necessarily include a stringent adherence to the Truth, the Logos. Which is why the author’s complete ignorance of Alt-Right philosophy is worrisome, in the least.

WHEREAS, all Christians are under obligation to seek to make the will of Christ supreme in our own lives and in human society, opposing all forms of racism, selfishness, and vice, and bringing government and society as a whole under the sway of the principles of righteousness, truth, and brotherly love; and

Racism is not a coherent idea, and has no applicable definition. The cause of Racism as we conceptualize it is rooted in sin which is deeper than simply a buzzword. Opposing all forms of selfishness? Is this guy following the same Jesus that I claim to follow? You know, the one who said to the Canaanite woman that It is not right to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs. Additionally, His law of love as described in Matthew 22:34-40 is dependent on selfishness. The command to love your neighbor as yourself is dependent on the idea that you have a selfishness inherent within you, and that it is to be used in the functionality of empathy in order to love your neighbor in the same selfish manner in which you would love yourself. Yes, oppose Vice. The next statement is where he goes even further off the deep end. Bringing government and society as a whole under the sway of the principles of righteousness, truth, and brotherly love? I would love to see the justification for that statement. Christianity has an individualistic philosophical foundation. There is a reason that Jesus said to give to Caesar what is Caesars and to God what is Gods. Note that he does not say to make Caesar righteous, to give him truth, or to give him brotherly love.

WHEREAS, just societies will order themselves as free men and women and organize at various times and for various purposes to establish political order and give consent to legitimate government; and

Depends what you mean by free. and political order. and consent. and legitimate government. Lack of precision indicates sloppy thought processes, possibly an emotional reaction, partly caused by his confusion of the incoherent ideology of White Nationalism/Supremacy with the Omninationalist ideology of the Alt-Right.

WHEREAS, the liberty of all nations to authorize such governments will, at times, allow for the rise of political parties and factions whose principles and ends are in irreconcilable conflict with the principles of liberty and justice for all; and

This is actually a completely truthful statement. The only problem is that the context of the rest of the resolution points towards the idea that he is referring, at least partially, to the Alt-Right. This would more accurately be attributed in the context of ideologies which are cradled with Marxist undertones.

WHEREAS, there has arisen in the United States a growing menace to political order and justice that seeks to reignite social animosities, reverse improvements in race relations, divide our people, and foment hatred, classism, and ethnic cleansing; and

Wow, I did not expect him to pivot towards attacking the BLM movement, Post-Modernists, Feminists, and Neocons. Alt-Right philosophy is designed as anti-Marxist. More evidence that he has no idea what he is talking about, and is simply virtue-signalling, or conflating White Nationalism/Supremacy with the Alt-Right, which is inaccurate.

WHEREAS, this toxic menace, self-identified among some of its chief proponents as “White Nationalism” and the “Alt-Right,” must be opposed for the totalitarian impulses, xenophobic biases, and bigoted ideologies that infect the minds and actions of its violent disciples; and

I have now concluded that this man is either not well-read, or has a low IQ, or both. The Alt-Right arose from an opposition to all of the accusations he is throwing at the Alt-Right. Holding the gun backwards in your hand is not useful to shooting your enemy. What part of OmniNationalist does he not understand? The right for all nations to have sovereignty over themselves under God is a fundamental right which he is denying due to its “xenophobia” and “bigotry”.

WHEREAS, the roots of White Supremacy within a “Christian context” is based on the so-called “curse of Ham” theory once prominently taught by the SBC in the early years – echoing the belief that God through Noah ordained descendants of Africa to be subservient to Anglos – which provided the theological justification for slavery and segregation. The SBC officially renounces the “curse of Ham” theory in this Resolution; now be it therefore

Not necessarily true, but I agree with the renunciation of the curse of Ham theory, as it is not based in truth. I would also suggest that a separate resolution be made for the renunciation of that theory, due to the potential gravitas of the idea. Although, I have not met a single person in my 20 years on earth that actually subscribes to this theory.

RESOLVED, that the Southern Baptist Convention, meeting in Phoenix, AZ, June 13-14, 2017, denounces every form of “nationalism” that violates the biblical teachings with respect to race, justice, and ordered liberty; and be it further

To denounce every form of nationalism, which he air quotes due to his inability to grasp the concept, is to embrace globalism and all of its subsequent consequences. This NeoBabelism that has taken over this man’s mind is dyscivic. Sad! I will take this moment to make the claim that OmniNationalism does not violate the biblical teachings of anything, let alone respect to race, justice, and ordered liberty.

RESOLVED, that we reject the retrograde ideologies, xenophobic biases, and racial bigotries of the so called “Alt-Right” that seek to subvert our government, destabilize society, and infect our political system; and  be finally

Right here he exhibits another instance of snake-tongue. He has attributed retro-gradation to the Alt-Right, which is a modern movement which is harmonious with historical reality, and he does not distinguish the concepts of race vs nation in his mind. It is almost as if the author is incapable of seeing anything except the color of peoples skin. Societies which have fallen to the Prince of Lies should be destabilized, and the modern day political system is worse than a joke, it is fulfilling the agenda of Neobabelism and Anti-Christianity. The author sees a needle enter into the political system and assumes that a virus is about to be injected, when in fact the vaccine is being administered for the infection which already exists within the system.

RESOLVED, that we earnestly pray, both for those who lead and advocate this movement and those who are thereby deceived, that they may see their error through the light of the Gospel, repent of their perverse nationalism, and come to know the peace and love of Christ through redeemed fellowship in the Kingdom of God, which is established from every nation, tribe, people, and tongue.

   I appreciate the call to prayer. In the same way that I appreciate the Islamic call to prayer. If one is praying that his resolution goes through, then one is not praying to the Creator God of the Universe, the Logos who is Lord Christ Jesus. It is not the Gospel which brings light, but the Word Himself. It is humorous that he claims that the people who are fighting for the sake of Christendom are deceived. I seem to recall a saying by someone important about taking a log out of your own eye before taking the speck out of your brother’s. His last statement is particularly troubling, as he claims the the Kingdom of God is established from every nation, tribe, people, and tongue. This is false. Christendom is established by the Christians. By definition, if a kingdom is established by any other people, then it is not the Kingdom of God.

Conclusion: William Dwight McKissic Sr. Should immediately resign from all of his positions within the Church due to:

His Lack of understanding of the concepts to which he purports to write about.
His blatant endorsement of the destruction of a Pro-Christian movement.
His bearing of false witness to brothers in Christ.
His snake-tongue presentation of this resolution.
His being a Social Justice Warrior.

If the SBC makes this resolution permanent, that institution shall be fallen to the Prince of Lies. To prevent this, all members of the SBC must get a copy of SJWs Always Lie and to clean up the convention of any Anti-Christian offenders. No matter how big they are, or insignificant they seem.

Thank you for taking the time to read this,
Theodore C. Brave

Just a quick preface note:

I am going to break all kinds of punctuation rules starting with the title.  I will capitalize things I feel are the most important not necessarily what grammar calls for and most assuredly not what the modern churchanity cultists call for.  I have spent many months and even years and this is only an excerpt of my overall feelings but it gives an insight into my overall thought line.  There are several links right after this section of text.  You will need to read them AND the links inside of those linked pages to be able to take this post into it full context.  This is not a quick exercise so get ready to invest some time.

  1.  Feelings towards “fellow christians”
  2. Persecution in America
  3. Churches Tweaking the Lions Tail
  4. Pastors Challenging the IRS 
  5. How the Gov’t CAN Interfere With NPOs
  6. Are Churches Ready to be Told How to Operate?
  7. The Fear Infestation of the Modern Church
  8. Christian Persecution is Only Just Beginning
  9. Destroying the Cult of Nice
  10. *UPDATE* 12/8/2016 How Christians are loosing the culture war by becoming Churchians..from a demons perspective.

I went into my time with my old church with grand illusions of wanting to do good for the cause of Jesus Christ.  The first warning sign was the entrenched you are an outsider attitude me and my family received.  My first instinct was to turn away but Heather being the eternal optimist convinced me to stay and keep trying.  So we did.  it turns out this church is pussified in many ways.  It is totally woman dominated with the men related to a support rule. In hindsight it always struck me as funny at how folks would bitch about the men not being very active in the church yet they did everything they could to minimize the role of men in true leadership of the church.  The real power was(and as far as i know still is) in the morass of committees that run the church which is where the real power is.  Finally after several attempts to energize the men which either were meant with inaction or were actively resisted I finally gave up.  It was only when I began to begin pushing to restore the Biblical role of men in the church dig various, very damaging incidents take place.

The first was I started hearing rumors around the church that folks were worried about my access to the church’s databases and how I could abuse the data.  To have my integrity questioned like that angered me and hurt at the same time.  I then made it known that first of all the staff could easily verify when any data had been accessed and it would be seen as what it was..baseless accusations.  When the accusations accelerated I found out who was spreading these lies and I then personally confronted the individual and told HER that if I am so untrustworthy she could have my keys and I will walk away from not only IT at the church but the church as well.  I also told this person good luck on finding someone who can run a 10k/year operation on literally next to nothing for NOTHING in pay.  I told her I did not need this bullshit.  If she has someone better in mind here are the keys.  She refused to take them and while she never apologized the rumors stopped.  This person would later be instrumental in organizing my exit from the church years later.

Next was when a worship band director at the time took issue with me and he cornered me in one of the offices and closed the door and proceeded to threaten me with physical harm and financial ruin.  Looking back I could have kicked his ass but I was so shocked at what I had just experienced that all I could do with cower back.  This person was very very rich and of decent influence in the church.  About 6 months later this person did something that I felt the need to stand up to him in public…right after a church front of the entire congregation.  What is humorous is I did not instigate this incident the other party did apparently thinking I would back down.  Not this time butthead.  This time he did not threaten me like he did the last time but his behavior got him removed from the worship team.  he eventually left the church..and years later he sold his business.

The next incident was even more egregious.  At this point I do not even know why this occurred but I remember the details of the incident outside the building very well.  There was a “gentleman” that for some reason decided to come after me and my family and started making threats.  By now I had a well established reputation as a hothead(well deserved looking back…but it is who I am when I am passionate about something.  My family is one thing I am VERY passionate about.  You can attack me that’s fine but you go after my wife(who was able to take care of herself) or my kids and all bets are off).  This person decided to make some threats out in the church parking lot which led to a serious disagreement and eventually led to me becoming so enraged all I could think about was getting my hands on this individual.  Only one person stopped me..probably one of maybe three or 4 people I actually respected in that church(the senior pastor at that time)… physically stood in front of me and that is the ONLY reason I was not on top of this individual.  Several people saw the incident including one man who at the time was about 6 foot 7 inches tall and nearly 400 hundred pounds.  We talked about this years later and I asked him what he would have done had the senior pastor not shown up.  He told me that he would have let me,” knock the fucker down at least” before pulling me off of him.  Later I had child protective services crawling in my life due to a malicious false complaint of child abuse.  Me and Heather successfully fought this off and upon my own investigation I found out the individual who cowardly attacked me was a former promotional pass-over in the school district and I was able to confirm my suspicion of who made the false complaint. It was the same individual who made the threats in the parking lot weeks earlier.

The final straw was when the person who originally questioned my integrity got into conflict of authority with her superior.  I heard an disagreement between these two women and finally the superior said she was done and I tuned out.  I then heard the superior turn and re-engage with the subordinate.  I had enough of this persons crappy attitude and I physically interposed myself in between the two and told her straight up..back off or you won’t like the result.  I was firm but never raised my voice but made it clear with my tone that in my eyes this conversation was over..she was in the wrong..and she needed to move on.  I knew I had started a shitstorm as every time I had interfered with her plans I got a huge backlash.  I settled in for what I knew was going to be a big fight.  Keep in mind this person was less than half my size and I made no attempt to dial down what must have been a very intimidating pose.  Me and the superior(who also my superior in this wing) were talking and she asked me if I knew the hornets nest I had started up.  I basically replied..what else is new?  I see something wrong going on..I step in to put a bulwark in place..I get blow back….and everybody moves on after it is discussed and a resolution is in place.  We then heard the subordinate talking to the senior pastor castigating us.  I then intercepted this explaining to the senior pastor that no deacons have been informed of the incident and that we have not been notified of her disagreement which forced the pastor to refer her to her deacon.  Of course that didn’t happen.  The churchian aspect took over and the elders jumped right in and without talking to me or the superior and they came down with a judgement.  I do not remember what my superior had to do but I was immediately and forever removed from my duties at the security desk.  I was beyond angry and hurt.  There was no following not only church policy but most importantly the Biblical course for conflict resolution.  We never got in a room with the three of us to discuss it.  I and the superior offered the other person refused.  It comes down the elders demanded that I do two things…I must accept the elders decisions as just, Biblical, and final…and that I apologize for my role in the matter.  I decided at that point I could not submit to authority that could not even follow the Bible itself while self-righteously declaring themselves God over the church and that I MUST obey.  I left the church after that.  There were other minor incidents that took place afterwards that led to other actions being taken by me and I have finally been freed from the churchians grip.  Here is a modified version of the final e-mail I sent to the elders spokesperson about thing as they stand.  I have removed personal references.

In my final meeting with the elders spokeperson I was told we live in sensitive times. Unfortunately for me that means I am now seen as a physical threat to children apparently by the leadership of the church.  Not because of unbilical behavior….not because of the not willing to be held accountable..but now nearly two years later I am being blocked from the security desk due to the sensitive times we live in.  In other words the elders are worried that I am perceived as a threat to children based on one sentence uttered more than two years ago. 

Here is the issue:  If I am such a threat then why is the church so determined to keep me around?  If I am such a threat why do I have small children and their parents both inside the church and mostly outside the church asking me if I am refffing again every year?  If I was truly a threat I would not be getting my certification to referee middle school and high school game mainly at the request of parents outside the church in the community at large.

I’ll tell you why.  It is one word.  It is called FEAR.  It is as the root of these “sensitive times” we live in.  The fear of offense.  The fear of perception.  The fear of unforgiveness.  I could go on and on and on.  In a nutshell this locking me out of the children security desk is based on the fear of how I am perceived and by extension how the church would be perceived.  Shouldn’t the church be an example of forgiveness and reconciliation?  Locking me out of the security desk is the exact opposite.

after he clearly baited me in the front parking lot and was forgiven and after a short time of discipline and reflection is back in the band in a highly visible ministry.  The woman whom I interposed myself in front of after our conflict while resigning from the children’s area is still one of the biggest power brokers in the church and is highly visible doing so.  She has been forgiven and mostly restored.  The band leader who nearly physically assaulted me in front of the entire congregation was offered forgiveness based on discipline.  I do not know the specifics but he continued leading worship for a bit before he left.  Yet I, a man who mainly works in the background, am locked out due to a pervasive fear of what it may be perceived as. 

The Bible addressed fear over and over and over again.  If you want me to cite verses reply and I will.  It sounds like the Elders are worried me loosing my temper or threatening somebody.  I have not publicly lost my temper or raised my voice in the church in more than 3 years.  Even when I was conflicting with the subordinate not once did I raise the volume of my voice.  Not at any point while this was going on did I raise a hand towards nor raise my voice towards the subordinate or anyone else.  Yet because of the fear of how I may be perceived I am locked out. 

In closing you wanted to know why I have a fundamental problem with the elders that’s it.  I have already laid out my issues with how the initial conflict was handled by the elders.  I have been unable to articulate my other issues with the elders until today.  I was driving down the road and had this inspiration to articulate my feelings in a more clear way than I could even at the meeting today with two elder spokesmen.  I hope this missive helps the elders understand the reason I have a fundamental disagreement with them.  In my mind the elders are handling this issues incorrectly by Biblical standards.  If something isn’t Biblical no other regulation matters.  Please take the time to read this..reflect upon it and pray upon it.  I do not want to get a reply full of we are right..throw Bible verses at me..and continue down the same path the elders have been taking.  I have been IMMENSELY flexible having discourse let’s not take a step back from what progress has been made.  I fully expect for the Elders to disagree with me in many if not all areas.  This is just something that came to me during prayer driving down the road…take it or leave it as you see fit.

Now I know you are reading all of this and thinking..on my God what a horrible church.  That is not totally accurate.  What cemented my decision to leave and request my membership to be terminated and removed from the rolls is when in an attempt to at least reconcile I agreed to one more meeting after Heather’s death.  The elders pretty much told me the same thing which led me to say we are done and leave…forever.  I then had some member of the congregation reach out to me and ask why I have not been to the church in so long.  I explained I have serious issues with the elders which preclude me from attending to which i was told MULTIPLE TIMES,” just ignore them…we usually do anyways”.  Talking about a shock.  Multiple congregants telling me to ignore the leadership because they do?  I had to ask why would I attend a church that thinks so unfavorably of it’s senior leadership that they are routinely ignored?  That would explain why the only folks that attend church business meetings are usually the committee members and a few other that are in the good graces of the committees.

The congregation of my old church has stood behind me and my family throughout the years…good and bad.  Every time the leadership attacked me members of the congregation would rally around my family and help us.  When cps was sent against us they came in and helped us get everything perfectly organized so cps would close the case.  When we had serious financial problems they stepped in and helped us fill our oil tank without anything in return.  When Heather died the senior pastor and many many congregation members came to my side and helped out in so many ways.  Unfortunately I cannot in good faith and sound conscience attend a church with it’s members in closet rebellion to their senior leadership and whose senior leadership continue to hold to the judgement based on fear and lies in terms of removing me.  I have finally told the elders I will accept my excommunication from the security desk if the elders will admit they failed to follow the Biblical code for conflict resolution.  This will give my spirit peace so I can move forward…but it will still mean I will not step foot inside that church for worship ever again.

I have been searching for why I am so disillusioned with churches these days.  It really comes down to what is guiding the church….churchianity or the bible.  What is the difference? churchianity is the touchy-feely wimpy, fearful of offense type of Christianity that infests the modern church in so many forms.  My former long-term church was always this way but in the past 5 years really began the slide into churchianity. so what am I talking about here?  Well the biggest lie is that Jesus was a gentle person and didn’t even do anything violent or offensive.  This is a lie that so many churchians believe in and it is EASILY refuted in the Bible itself.  Just read the new testament when Jesus talks about the religious leaders of the time back then in context.  The translations I am sure also watered the language down a bit but Jesus was calling the Jewish leaders of that time some vile names.  For us the names are not shocking but again most people know nothing of history or the culture of the time.  I have yet to hear many pastors talk about the Bible in the correct context…yet they wonder why their messages are so hollow. Combine this with the touchy-feely, sjw/lgbtqjeudmdhdy(who knows how many letters will be added?) compatibility fear based let’s not offend anyone “preaching” and we can see why false teachers are so prevalent and/or why so many pastors sermons are ignored.  Churchianity also drives churches to do other things as well like:

  1.  Hang onto a government granted tax avoidance scheme which does NOTHING but guarantee the govt’s ability to interfere with their operations
  2. An overwhelming desire to affiliate with some kind of umbrella organization
  3. expel those who have a true passion for the Lord’s work
  4. Hat tip to Vox Day for this one:  Subscribing to the cult of nice

I have since been sporadically attending another church that has broken away from the sex scandal ridden sovereign grace movement which gave me hope.  I have since heard they want to associate with another movement whose name I cannot remember.  The first thing that came to my mind was WHY? Isn’t the bible all you need to guide a church and it’s flock?  It has led me to question do I want my family attending a church that their first move after breaking away from a corrupted movement is to immediately associate with another movement?  Why not just ride the words of scripture for your guidance?    I am not sure how long I am going to attend this church at this point either.  It has led me to realize that so many churches are leaning on the wrong things.  I was only just now able to articulate my feelings about this second church.

So what am I looking for?  A Biblical church.  One that is NOT afraid to stand on the Bible as it guidance and accountability with a fully Biblical structure.  If this model is followed they will give this world what it is so hungry for.  Jesus was not this dovesih, offend no one figure that modern churchians have put forward.  This has resulted in Christians becoming the fearful, weak, conflicted, and ineffective ministry we are now.  What do we need to do?  Let’s reject the cult of nice….the unbiblical view that ANYONE can get into heaven.  Honestly when I look at myself am I deserving of paradise?  How well have I followed the Lord’s Word and his Son Jesus Christ?  I think I have some work to do…and I think many many Christians do to.  Where is that leadership going to come from?  Is there a truly biblical Church out there?  I have for a few years wondered if I am on this thought journey to starting my own Church?  Right now I do not know the answer to these questions…but with prayer the Lord will show me the answers to these questions.  If he deems me worthy to lead a church…I will do so very reluctantly at first…let’s be honest..:)  The Lord may have me be the pillar since I am very very good at being the foundation and working in the background.  Right now I do not know what the answer is..but I do know what and where the answer is NOT.


I am tired of seeing Obama take every incident of shootings to scold this country on the exercising of our rights under the Constitution even though more and more of us are actually giving up those rights. This shooting was a targeted attack on Christians.  Where’s the media outrage? Where’s the Al Sharptions? Where’s the mention of a hate crime as this is what this is? Nowhere. Karl Denninger has a great take on this. I’ll post it here because he puts things so succinctly I do not need to add anything further to it:

There are some very disturbing reports coming in about the Oregon shooting.

First off, it was clear within minutes that the shooter targeted Christians. How many people in our political system have been outraged that Christians were targeted for execution while others were either shot in the leg or not shot at all? I have heard exactly nothing from Obama or anyone else in political power in that regard. Why not?

Second, you’ve heard my screeds over the years about The Second Amendment. If you cannot argue facts and logic then get the hell off my lawn — you’re unwelcome around me. In matters of life and death there is exactly zero room for any sort of “squishy”, “touchy-feely” or “feel good emotionalism.”

Let me be clear: If you resort to emotion when life or death are on the line you are going to die.

If you wish to entertain the debate here on firearms, gun control or anything of the sort then you are going to argue logic and facts. Here they are:

The only thing that stops a bad guy with a gun is a good guy with a gun. You call the police when there is an active shooter and they show up with guns. They don’t willy-wally around; they look for a tactical solution and if they get one that works they shoot the bad guy. That’s exactly what happened yesterday.

We cannot have cops everywhere, all the time. We are not only incapable of paying for it nobody would want to live in such a world. Even if a cop is just one minute away from anywhere in the United States (an utterly fanciful expectation even in a big city) a person with a bolt action rifle or single-shot pistol can shoot a dozen people (or more!) in that one minute. As a result the faster any good guy with a gun can engage the bad guy with a gun the lower the risk is of everyone in the vicinity winding up dead — and the more good guys with guns and the closer they are to the situation the better the odds are for you and everyone else.

Virtually all (something like all but three) mass-shootings in the last couple of decades have taken place in “gun-free zones.” To those who want to further restrict firearms — since there are literally over 100 million peaceful Americans that never have and never will commit a crime with a firearm, and that is an overwhelming majority of the population that owns guns, why don’t we ban gun-free zones since virtually every single mass-shooting has taken place in one? There’s an obvious reason that these homicidal maniacs don’t shoot up a cop shop — everyone there is armed and will shoot back! If our President — or anyone on the left — gave a good damn about human life they would both take down the “Nobody here that obeys the law is able to defend themselves, commit mass-murder here” signs.

You have an unalienable right to life. The Constitution does not grant you that right because the government never possessed it in the first place and you cannot grant that which you do not first possess. The Founders understood this and we know that because they declared it to be so in the Declaration of Independence; that’s why such a right is not in the Constitution, but the recognition of same, in the gravest extreme, is found in the Second Amendment.

You are free to decide at any time to give up. You are not free to demand that others give up, including giving up their right to protect their own lives. Any infringement on the Second Amendment is a declaration of your disrespect for someone else’s life and an indirect assault upon same. The only means by which that is legitimate is if and when you are willing to die in the place of those who you demand be disarmed. If you are not willing to take a bullet intended for me then you have no right to demand that I, in any situation that I find myself, be debarred the ability to effectively fight back against such an assault.

A right cannot be conditioned upon a permit. By definition a permit or license gives you the ability to do something otherwise prohibited. If I have a right to defend my own life I need no permit to do so.

For the above reasons people at large have the right to own, possess and carry upon their person arms suitable for defensive use without any damn permits. Period.
If you cannot argue these points from a perspective of logic then you have no basis to be here as a member with the privilege of commenting and having your state (e.g. what you’ve read, etc) between sessions. In point of fact this is a perfect illustration of the difference between rights and privileges — you have no right to be on this site on the Internet at all as it is private property, and therefore I may deny you entry as I wish.

Now let me leave you with one more thing to contemplate.

There are reports that the shooter reloaded during his rampage. If these reports are true and he was in the room with a bunch of people who were about to become deceased then you need to hear this very clearly and must read this next sentence over and over until it sinks in:

Stop watching the damn movies and become educated now about firearms.

The instant that jackass dropped his magazine and thus announced he was out at the close range that exists in a classroom (30-50′ or so maximum, right?) there was absolutely no reason on God’s Green Earth why the persons there should not have immediately grabbed something (e.g. a chair!) and threw it at him and/or bum-rushed the shooter.

He was empty and thus at that point he was a thug with a club until he could reload.

Everyone reading this needs to spend some time in the deep, dark recesses of their mind and drill this singular fact far, far into your consciousness:

If you find yourself in a situation like this you must assume you are dead.

Therefore, logic says that anything you do from that instant forward can only change things for the better. Yes, you may fail. One ex-military member reportedly did try to rush the shooter and was shot several times. It is reported he is expected to survive. His doing so likely prevented some number of other people from being shot as the shooter was occupied with shooting at him. He is a hero but the point here is not to urge people to be heros — it is to point out that once your life is under assault in this sort of fashion nothing you can do will make the situation worse; you can only improve your odds.

You won’t hear this from the mainslime media nor from the so-called “pundits” and “experts” but it is true. You do not know how many rounds or what other weapons the person threatening you has. You only know that that person’s very presence and presentation means that from an objective point of view you must assume you are dead and thus if you get any tactical advantage, no matter how small, you must take advantage of it immediately and without a second thought.

On United Flight 93 the passengers did exactly this, collectively. They saved a tremendous number of lives by doing so. They correctly surmised that they were all dead at the moment they learned the plane had been hijacked and was intended to be used as a bomb. There was, for this reason, no downside to any action they might take — they could only improve their odds and those of others, and decided to do so.

This was the correct decision. It is the only logical decision and the only logical set of actions in a circumstance such as this.

Folks, firearms do not shoot themselves. They do run out of ammunition. If they are not aimed, but rather wildly fired, they either miss or if they hit someone it is much less likely to cause serious injury or death than if they are deliberately aimed. Bullets do not have a GPS embedded in them as you see in the movies and without deliberate, concentration action most of the time they will miss. There is an infamous Youtube video of a bar fight in Toledo a number of years back in which many shots were fired at close range typical of the distance you’d find in a classroom. Watch the video folks, and then realize this: Not one of those rounds hit anyone.

Therefore anything you can do that detracts from an active shooter’s concentration and deliberation who is targeting you increases your odds of survival and that of everyone in the area with you.

If you are scared of firearms then do something about that. Take a shooting lesson from an instructor or someone you trust that owns firearms. Learn how they work and how to handle them safely without quivering in fear. A gun is just a mechanical device and simpler than most that you use every day; it is vastly less-complex than a bicycle, lawn-mower or car. Safe use and handling of firearms is not difficult to learn at all and every gun works essentially the same way. Understanding this and having at least a passing level of comfort with it means that if you find yourself in a situation such as what occurred the other day and you are given a tactical break no matter how small you will have a clean opportunity to save not only your own life but that of everyone in the vicinity.

I usually do not post things of a personal nature here but since my beliefs are part of my businesses foundation I feel this is appropriate. Since my wife died over memorial day I have been having to adjust to such a huge loss and trying to keep not only myself together but also keeping my family together, continuing to operate a business, and start a new advertising campaign. It has been hard to say the least. I have had folks tell me they do not know how I am continuing to go on. Honestly I almost didn’t. The first month was so chaotic I just wanted to shut down this business and go work elsewhere. The name of the business is Emmanuel Technology Consulting for a reason. i truly felt led not only to start this business but I felt led to honor my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ in doing so. That is why the business logos are very prevalent signs of the cross. That is why I am as open as I can be about things. It is also why I am willing to work with folks even to the point of “leaving money on the table”. I did not start this business to become wealthy but I did start this business to make a living for my family.

It has taken from My 26th until tonight for me to really be able to find a song that really inspires me without triggering my ongoing grief about the loss of my wife. Casting Crowns was one of my wifes favorite music groups of any genre and honestly one of mine as well. I had the following lyrics going through my head for the past week abut I could not recall what song it was from. Here is the lyric “snippett” that was running around in my head:

When You call my name, I’ll run to You
I’ll do anything You ask me to
Falling on my knees I worship You, my Lord
We give You glory
We give You glory
We give You glory
We give You glory

Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia

Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia

When You call my name, I’ll run to You
I’ll do anything You ask me to
Falling on my knees I worship You, my Lord

We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia

We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
Alle Alleluia
We give You glory
Alle Alleluia
We give You glory

figure it out yet? It is by Casting Crowns and the song is “Glory”. I have been thanking the Lord for many things during these past few months. The fact that I know beyond a shadow of doubt that my wife is in heaven singing praises to the Lord. The fact that her death put me in a much better financial position to get badly needed repairs to our house completed. The fact that I am finally able to embark on a major marketing campaign bigger than anything I have ever attempted. This includes this website, new shirts, hats, signs for my vehicle, trade memberships, trade shows and other things. What has given me the inspiration for all of this? My own personal faith in Jesus Christ. I named the business after Him so I am letting Him guide my steps. My life is not anywhere back in even a few pieces but with His help it is coming together in so many ways it is hard to keep up with. New things are beginning, old things are being swept away and new things are being revealed. Is it easy? Absolutely not. Jesus says the walk of a believer is hard but He will never abandon me nor forsake me. I have seen this not only in my personal life also in my family, my business, and my own faith. He has carried me for the past couple of months although I just recently figured that out. I now know why those lyrics are in my head. Alle Alleluia Alle Alleluia to he who has carried me when I didn’t know it. Pastor Bill Mullins, wherever yhou might be now, I am striving to get that “bulldog faith” back. It looks like the Lord thinks it’s about time I do the same thing..:)

I have been visiting many churches in the past couple of years looking for someplace I can call my church home.  My anchor throughout this journey has been two things:  First is my faith in Jesus Christ.  Second was my now deceased wife Heather.  She helped me stay grounded in many ways.  When she passed the church I currently “attend” was sent from heaven to assist me and my family in our time of shock, grief and need.  That church congregation for the most part has been excellent and caring towards my family and myself.  However things elsewhere aren’t nearly as pleasant.  I have seen both in this church and many others a reluctance do so some things we are called to do by the Bible and an unwillingness to do other things due to  “sensitive times” we are living in.  I had only taken a passing notice of this phenomenon until it came to a head at my current church.

What is this pervasive infestation that is dragging down so many church and ministries?  FEAR.  It is at the root of so many actions and inaction in the church today.  You can now make a bad choice of words prompted by somebody’s else’s bad actions and because of that you are locked out of a ministry forever due to the fear of a perception of a dangerous individual being allowed around children.  You can now be effectively excommunicated for daring to speak the words of truth at a church function or meeting for fear of offense.  I have yet to hear a sermon recently not condemning the homosexual but showing how God sees the act of homosexuality, which by the way is the same thing as fornication(there’s a huuuuuge difference there) for fear of reprisal.  There are many many militant Christians out there who are using the Bible as a club instead of preaching the salvation of Jesus Christ for those who turn from there sinful ways for fear they will not be heard.  So many things that are being done out of fear and so many things NOT being done out of various fears. Do not take this as my changing what i think if Biblical or what is not.  This is mainly a statement of what I have seen in the Church for the past couple of years…and not jsut one church but many churches that i have visited in the past couple of years.  We are told to go boldly out and spread the Gospel….where has that spirit gone?

I have a warning for ALL Christians.  It is already nearly illegal to stand in your religious beliefs when conducting business.  It soon will be illegal to refuse service to anyone as the gov’t sees the First amendment as nothing to be enforced for everyone but those whom the gov’t thinks should have those rights.  The day is fast approaching when preaching the truth from the Bible in regard to sexual immorality will be cause for the gov’t to take financial actions against your church.  I have talked about what is coming more than a few times on this site.  Simply uttering the name Jesus now is most likely offensive to more than a few people.  I have the signs of the cross on my vehicle, my shirts and my hats.  I get more than a few ugly stares when I am out and about.  However with the Lord’s help I am hoping to return to my earlier days when I was told i have a “bulldog” faith.  Now that i have some years on me the faith is tempered with compassion but my ability to hang onto my faith has not wavered.  My faith in “fellow Christians” is low but my faith in Jesus Christ is not.  What I have seen quite a bit of in the past years is “Churchianity” not “Christianity”.  Our lives are not supposed to revolve around the church but around Jesus Christ.  Many Christians think the Bibles admonishment of gathering in fellowship means a church but I strongly disagree.  I am a member of a Monday(or Tuesday or whenever during the week..(G).  I have learned more in the year of attending that Bible study than more than 10 years of consistent church attendance.  Why is that?  I can tell you why…THE LACK OF FEAR.  We do not always agree…actually there have been strong disagreements among ourselves.  We have always though agreed the Bible is the final arbiter and the word of God has the final say.  That is how it should be.

I was HIGHLY worried about how i was going to makeup the huge income hole Heather’s death left behind.  While it has not been totally filled in I will be able to keep the house and keep a roof over my family’s head.  I was terrified as a matter of fact.  Only when i gave it to the Lord did he send me the finances I needed to keep the house.  Everything else is going to be tight but that seems to be how God works things…:)  Fear is the opposite of trusting God.  It leads to poor decisions….bad financial management…unforgiveness…a multitude of things.  Christian get the fear out of your life.  Churches, get the fear out of your decision making.  You are hurting the very people you are supposed to be helping and you are severely hampering or destroying the ministries that are supposed to be thriving because of your existence.  Hurt people won’t come into your building and hurt Christians are left feeling even more bitter and hurt than the unbelievers.  When you stunt, degrade, hurt, utter falsehoods against a Christian you not only hurt the person Fear must be exposed for the demonic presence it is and rooted out and cast out.  Which church will be the first to stand on and with God against this modern day infestation?  I know not about the church but as for me and my house we will stand with the Lord.  Without fear and with the strength of Jesus Christ.

Gay marriage is only the beginning. Words do have meaning and do have consequences Mr. President to wit:
This morning, the Supreme Court recognized that the Constitution guarantees marriage equality. In doing so, they have reaffirmed that all Americans are entitled to the equal protection of the law; that all people should be treated equally, regardless of who they are or who they love.

Do not think that this stop with gay marriage but all other kinds of marriage band are going to fall now. I do not believe this was an unintentional act either. I think you were fully cognizant of the ramifications of this ruling.  That second sentence says it all Mr. President.  It will soon be legal to marry anyone or anything you wish and as i warned in a previous post (Obama’s lawyers even said the following during arguments: Religious institutions could be at risk of losing their tax-exempt status due to their beliefs about marriage if the Supreme Court holds that gay couples have a constitutional right to wed, President Obama’s attorney acknowledged to the Supreme Court today. )

So churches I repeat my call.  When are you going to drop your NPO status to at least buy some time before you are TOLD you must officiate gay weddings or loose your tax exempt status?  How many will capitulate to keep that (inset golem) “preciousss” tax break?  The ones that boldly have faith in God and renounce their NPO status and adhere boldly to the Bible are the ones who will flourish….the rest will flounder.

This will put me at odds with some friends I know.  I see it this way.  If a church doesn’t want to perform a same sex ceremony they shouldn’t have to.  They should also not fear reprisals(VERY common right now) from same sex couples either.  A new wave of attacks and persecutions are going to fire up.  My question is are the militant LGBTQ’s also willing to go after the Mulims for whom homosexuality is more violently opposed?  If they are so right where’s the outrage against the Muslims?


Welcome to 2015 and the Obama admin has stated at the SCOTUS case now being heard about gay marriage that if the SCOTUS rules for gay marriage any institution that fails to comply might loose(let’s be honest it WILL change to WILL LOOSE) it’s NPO status.  Do you understand what this means for ALL CHURCHES????  It is time to relinquish your NPO status NOW if you don’t want the gov’t to tell you how you are going to operate.  The government is atheistic and doesn’t care about the Bible anymore than the muslims do.  BTW do not think this revocation will be applies equally.  There will be some other faith churches revoked but the vast majority will be Christian churches….namely the “protestant” ones.

Do not think this will keep you NPO’s safe forever though.  Once there’s a mass move away from the NPO status the government will just start taking harsher measures to bring the “non-compliant” to heel.  However while there is still time to act independent form government interference drop your NPO status now.

I said this a loooooong time ago at my now former church and i was dismissed and ridiculed for saying it is time for churches to give up their federal NPO status. WHY? Because if you are going to use a gov’t provided instrument to avoid paying taxes do not be surprised when the gov’t starts to interfere with your operations as you are effectively taking a gov’t subsidy. With gov’t subsidies come the gov’t being able to dictate how you are to act to continue to collect that subsidy. I made this blog post back in 2011 to this point when a bunch of pastors were going to “defy the IRS” and dare them to revoke their NPO status.  What stopped the IRS back then?  Nothing they could have and there’s nothing anyone could have done about it.

The Constitution forbids this!  I can hear this coming back to me.  Yes it does but what has the electorate told the government for the past 50 or more years?  It is not, “You exist at our consent and we DO NOT consent to these invasions of our rights!”.  no america that is not what you have been telling government at all levels.  What you avhe been saying is,”If you give us enough money, subsidies, welfare, freebies of any kind we will allow you to interfere with our basic rights and will not do anything when you violate the Constitution right in front of us.  We will not take action when you not only violate the Constitution but when you taunt us and tell us what you are going to do BEFORE you do it we might complain but will take no meaningful action.  We will elect those into power that give us these abuses over and over so we can keep getting our stream of freebies”.

There are some that have taken real measures like voting corrupt officials out…running for office themselves…getting other citizens involved and active…but sadly that number is waaaay to small.  Even our churches are apathetic when it comes to the rights abuses that are ongoing in this country.  I do not know if it is too late or not.  I DO know it is time for radical action on the part of our churches AND their congregations.  Yes this means the churches are going to have to raise much more money and that congregations are going to have to dig much deeper.  Where is thy faith?  Any church that takes this bold step of relinquishing their NPO status and doing so in a way where their congregation is informed AND is faithful in God’s provision might be really surprised at the results..:)

It’s not the Christians actively acting discriminatory against gays(who’s lifestyle is by definition a choice) but the other way around.  Also Christianity is also a lifestyle(a choice of how to live as well).


Yeah, you see, it’s actually the Christians that are the bigots….. or wait, maybe it’s not?

No one targeted pro-gay bakeries, but gay activists target Christian bakeries. “Support Gay Marriage” is one Christian bakery was sued for refusing to put that slogan on a cake for an event to support the gay agenda. Yet Christian bakeries that refuse to make pro-homosexual marriage cakes are getting sued left, right, and center. They get fined, they get death threats, and they lose their businesses.


So decided to call some 13 prominent pro-gay bakers in a row. Each one denied us the right to have “Gay Marriage Is Wrong” on a cake and even used deviant insults and obscenities against us. One baker even said all sorts of profanities against Christians and ended the conversation by saying that she will make me a cookie with a large phallus on it.

And how many of those bakeries have been sued, threatened, or prosecuted by State Authorities?  Zero.

Even better — the alleged “pizzeria” that refused to cater a gay wedding….. never did refuse.

They were asked, hypothetically — and in fact said they didn’t care who came in to eat at their restaurant (gay, straight, blue, green, Martian or whatever); it was actively supporting an act their religious beliefs forbid they were opposed to and did not wish to support.

Note that the openly gay bakeries above, numbering 13 in a row that were polled, have not been (1) trashed on social media, (2) threatened with being burned the ground, (3) sued, (4) prosecuted by state authorities or in any other way had the same sanctions they demand be imposed on Christian bakeries — and pizzerias — imposed upon them!

ABC-57 reporter Alyssa Marino’s editor sends her on a half-hour drive southwest of their South Bend studio, to the small town of Walkerton (Pop. ~2,300). According to Alyssa’s own account on Twitter, she “just walked into their shop [Memories Pizza] and asked how they feel” about Indiana’s new Religious Freedom Restoration Act.

Owner Crystal O’Connor says she’s in favor of it, noting that while anyone can eat in her family restaurant, if the business were asked to cater a gay wedding, they would not do it. It conflicts with their biblical beliefs. Alyssa’s tweet mentions that the O’Connors have “never been asked to cater a same-sex wedding.”

So what did that business get for such a response?  They were inundated by knowingly false reviews on Yelp (that’s libel folks) by people who have never been there and in fact a female coach at a high school not too far away tweeted what looks like a threat to commit arson:

Who’s going to Walkerton, IN to burn down #memoriespizza w me?

Betcha she wasn’t charged.

So let me see if I get this right.

You can pray at any church you want, as long as it’s not Christian.

You can have any religious beliefs you want, as long as they’re not Christian.

You can live to any religious code you’d like, as long as it’s not Christian.

We are in fact passing laws and enforcing them that act to punish people based on their religious beliefs and the fact that they live their lives to those beliefs, so long as that belief system is Christian.

This comports with the First Amendment and does not in fact exhibit a violation of The Constitution, Federal anti-discrimination law, never mind various laws enjoining threats to violent felonies (arson, for one)….. exactly how?

Does someone mind explaining how this concerted set of activities does not reach both State and Federal Racketeering and extortion statutes and why we who are not part of this pressure group should not boycott all states and corporations that back this sort of crap — starting right now and continuing forevermore until these bigots are prosecuted under the very law they are screaming about and got changed to their liking!

via But It’s All About DISCRIMINATION You See (RFRA) in [Market-Ticker].

This is a funny title.  This is exciting to see the jewish holiday of such significance aligning with my day of Thanksgiving..:)


Gobble tov! American Jews ready for Thanksgivukkah – New York News.

Are evangelical Christians rapidly becoming one of the most hated minorities in America? Once upon a time such a notion would have been unthinkable, but these days things are changing dramatically. All over the United States, evangelical Christians are being called “extremists” and evangelical Christian organizations are being labeled as “hate groups”. In fact, as I will detail later on in this article, a U.S. Army Reserve training presentation recently specifically identified evangelical Christians as “religious extremists”. This should be extremely chilling for all evangelical Christians out there, because as history has shown us over and over again, when you want to persecute a particular group of people the first step is always to demonize them. And that is exactly what is being done to evangelical Christians today. Just look at how evangelical Christians are being portrayed on television and in the movies. Just look at how much hate is being spewed at Christians on the Internet. The Southern Poverty Law Center and the ACLU, both of which are considered to be among the most prominent “civil rights” organizations in the United States, are seemingly obsessed with attacking evangelical Christians. It has become trendy to bash Christians, and that is a very frightening thing. After they have finished demonizing evangelical Christians, what will the next step be?

via » All Over America Evangelical Christians Are Being Labeled As “Extremists” And “Hate Groups” Alex Jones’ Infowars: There’s a war on for your mind!.

Excerpts From Lupe fiasco’s Battle Scars:

Hope the wound heals but it never does

That’s cause you at war with loveYou at war with love, yeah

I saw this last night as i was heading to bed..jimmy fallon had Lupe on and i loved this song.  Sometimes as i think about my life the scars of past events in my life get to be a weighty thing to behold as the biggest scars are those caused by trusted folks are loved ones.  Those scars are often the ugliest, deepest  and most jagged.   I’ve been thinking about this song and my own scars…. it does bring back painful memories including one that’s fresh caused by someone i trusted.  However behind that painful scar is one that has finally been much as it’s going to be..:)  I’ve forgiven this person but trust me i won’t ever forget..:)

Then just leave thenYou shouldn’t have but you said itAnd I hope you never come backIt shouldn’t have happened but you let itNow you’re down on the ground screaming medicThe only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses

Lupe mentions the post-traumatic stresses…man don’t we all carry some?  Some of our own doing..some not..some there’s no way we could be the cause yet we get them anyway.  This song has also opened my eyes in other areas about despair.  What an insidious emotion this is.  I can remember a time when i felt that.  It’s the darkest, sneakiest emotion i can think of…others may disagree though on this point.

These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading

Don’t look like they’re ever going away

They ain’t ever gonna changeThese battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading

Don’t look like they’re ever going awayThey ain’t ever gonna change

What can you do in this regard?  I like songs that help…or sometimes force me to loo inwards.  the experience may not be pleasant but it is always informative and a learning experience.  i honestly think the Lord put this song into my lap because it’s draw is otherwise inexplicable..:)  I’m not looking to feel hurt..i’m not into self-infliction of discomfort or pain.  there’s so much we oftentimes don’t see due to our own self-imposed disbelief…the Lord has showed me something though very interesting.   Don’t stop trusting just because somebody trusted or is a member of a trusted group.  Be more cautious in your trust but don’t shut all trust down.  Easy to type and difficult to implement properly.  Nobody’s perfect….I’ll make mistakes.  The trick is to not be afraid to make them…. just make sure you have Jesus to guide you..and if you fall He’ll carry you..:)


Lupe Fiasco & Guy Sebastian – Battle Scars [Official Music Video] – YouTube.

It starts at home…then goes to our churches. I have to say i’m guilty of the home bound version.  I’m not nearly where God wants me to be.  Secondly, our churches.  If the church body won’t regulate the church according to first the Bible then secondly it’s own founding documents then the issues are going to continue.  For all Christians it’s time to get things back under His control…and it all starts at home…and in my case it all starts with me.

Another example of persecution here in America.  It is not coming to is already here.


The American Freedom Law Center today said it has asked the high court to review a 6th U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals’ ruling that Michigan pastors who preached the biblical condemnation of homosexual behavior were not protected by the First Amendment right to freedom of speech.“There is no doubt that this federal criminal statute violates the First Amendment on its face,” said Robert Muise of AFLC. “Thus, the act chills the exercise of free speech, specifically the free speech of our clients, who speak out against homosexuality. This chilling effect is sufficient to confer standing to challenge the act as a matter of law.”David Yerushalmi, co-founder and senior counsel of AFLC, said “criminalizing religious opposition to homosexuality while elevating those who engage in homosexual acts to a protected class under federal law is a clear violation of the Constitution and a frightening abuse of federal power.”

via Potential 10-year terms for ‘bias’ challenged by pastors.

The below isn’t bold it’s nearly stupid.  If you are using a gov’t mechanism to get around your entity having to pay taxes you shouldn’t be surprised when said gov’t pulls on your chain..because you’re wearing one!  If you don’t want the gov’t “interfering” then give up the npo and you can freely talk about anything you want.


Some pastors have been brave enough to rise up and do exactly that.  This weekend is “Pulpit Freedom Sunday” in churches across the country.  Pastors in pulpits across the country will not only endorse candidates from the pulpit, but will also send the tapes of the services directly to the IRS.  Now that’s bold!

via Pastor to Taunt IRS Over Free Speech – Gina Loudon – Townhall Finance Conservative Columnists and Financial Commentary – Page 1.

These pastors are forgetting you are using a gov’t instrument to get around paying taxes.  Because you are using a gov’t instrument the gov’t can most assuredly do this.  Want freedom from gov’t interference?  Drop your NPO status voluntarily.  if you are paying taxes as per the laws of the land you can preach anything you want.


More than 1,000 pastors are planning to challenge the IRS next month by deliberately preaching politics ahead of the presidential election despite a federal ban on endorsements from the pulpit.

The defiant move, they hope, will prompt the IRS to enforce a 1954 tax code amendment that prohibits tax-exempt organizations, such as churches, from making political endorsements. Alliance Defending Freedom, which is holding the October summit, said it wants the IRS to press the matter so it can be decided in court. The group believes the law violates the First Amendment by “muzzling” preachers.

“The purpose is to make sure that the pastor — and not the IRS — decides what is said from the pulpit,” Erik Stanley, senior legal counsel for the group, told “It is a head-on constitutional challenge.”

Stanley said pastors attending the Oct. 7 “Pulpit Freedom Sunday” will “preach sermons that will talk about the candidates running for office” and then “make a specific recommendation.”

“We’re hoping the IRS will respond by doing what they have threatened,” he said. “We have to wait for it to be applied to a particular church or pastor so that we can challenge it in court. We don’t think it’s going to take long for a judge to strike this down as unconstitutional.”

An amendment was made to the IRS tax code in 1954, stating that tax-exempt organizations are “absolutely prohibited from directly or indirectly participating in, or intervening in, any political campaign on behalf of (or in opposition to) any candidate for elective public office.”

“Violation of this prohibition may result in denial or revocation of tax-exempt status and the imposition of certain excise tax,” the IRS says in its online guide for churches and religious organizations seeking tax exemption.

via Pastors pledge to defy IRS, preach politics from pulpit ahead of election | Fox News.

As somebody adopted himself this man has consistently shown he doesn’t know much about Jesus’s gospel.  I’m no Biblical scholar myself but even I know Robertson is just plain off his rocker on this one.  I also work with two special needs adults in my daily lawnmowing job.  I’ve not even gone to the 700 club website in nearly a decade.  Turn this fool off.


In a recent broadcast of The 700 Club, a woman sent in a question about a man who wouldn’t marry her because she has children who were adopted internationally. If they were her “own” biological children, he would have no problem, she said. But because they were adopted, he saw too much risk. Host Pat Robertson’s female co-host bristled and said he was acting like a “dog.” Robertson disagreed.

He said the man “didn’t want to take on a United Nations,” and that, after all, you never know about adopted children; they might have brain damage and “grow up weird.”


The issue here isn’t just that Robertson is, with cruel and callous language, dismissing the Christian mandate to care for the widows and orphans in their distress. The issue is that his disregard is part of a larger worldview. The prosperity and power gospel Robertson has preached fits perfectly well with the kind of counsel he’s giving in recent years. Give China a pass on their murderous policies; we’ve got business interests there. Divorce your weak wife; she can’t do anything for you anymore. Those adopted kids might have brain damage; they’re “weird.” What matters is health and wealth and power. But that’s not the gospel of Jesus Christ. For too long, we’ve let our leaders replace the cross with an Asherah pole. Enough is enough.

Jesus was, after all, one of those adopted kids. Joseph of Nazareth was faced with a pregnant woman he could easily have abandoned. He knew this child wasn’t his, and all he had to go on was her word and a dream. He could have dismissed either. But he strapped on his cross, provided for his wife, and protected her child. Indeed, he became a father to her child. God called this righteous. The child Jesus seemed to be a colossal risk. His own family and neighbors and villagers thought he’d turned out “weird” (Mark 3:20-21). Maybe he was demon-possessed, they speculated, or maybe even “brain damaged.”

The Bible tells us that Jesus is present with the weak and the vulnerable, the “least of these,” his brothers and sisters. When one looks with disgust at the prisoner, the orphan, the abandoned woman, the mentally ill, the problem isn’t just with a mass of tissue connected by neural endings. The issue there is the image of God, bearing all the dignity that comes with that. And, beyond that, the issue there is the presence of Jesus himself.

Christians are the ones who have stood against the prophets of Baal and the empire of Rome and every other satanic system to say that a person’s worth doesn’t consist in his usefulness. Christians are the ones who picked up abandoned babies, who wiped drool from the dying elderly, who joyfully received developmentally disabled children, and who recognized that our own sin has made us nothing noble or powerful. We’re all just dead and damaged and, well, “weird.” But Jesus loved us anyway.

I say to my non-Christian friends and neighbors, if you want to see the gospel of Christ, the gospel that has energized this church for two thousand years, turn off the television. The grinning cartoon characters who claim to speak for Christ don’t speak for him. Find the followers who do what Jesus did. Find the people who risk their lives to carry a beaten stranger to safety. Find the houses opened to unwed mothers and their babies in crisis. Find the men who are man enough to be a father to troubled children of multiple ethnicity and backgrounds.

And find a Sunday School class filled with children with Down Syndrome and cerebral palsy and fetal alcohol syndrome. Find a place where no one considers them “weird” or “defective,” but where they joyfully sing, “Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world.”

That might not have the polish of television talk-show theme music, but that’s the sound of bloody cross gospel.

via Moore to the Point – Pat Robertson vs. the Spirit of Adoption.

I wonder how many of your own people you have to destroy before you’ll realize you are only advancing the agenda of Satan with your attacks on each other. I wonder how many more destroyed lives the churches will allow before the pastors grow a set and start enacting biblical discipline on their congregations. I wonder many more destroyed fellowships have to be endured before Pastors will start taking their flocks to task. I wonder how many congregations will continue to play the power and mind games they play before they realize they aren’t being Godly but Satanic?  How many individuals faith do you have to destroy for your own satisfaction?   I wonder how many congregations being destroyed it will take for these people to stop being Satanic and start being godly?

What hurts the most,
Is being being so close
having so much to say
watching you walk away

You never when
what could have been
not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do
(courtesy of rascal flatts)

Here is the full song and it nearly perfectly details my feleings about “fellow Christians”.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let em out

I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Goin’ on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m okay
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up, gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin’ so much to say
(Much to say)
And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
(To say)
And watchin’ you walk away

And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

Not seein’ that lovin’ you
That’s what I was trying to do, ooo


My inspiration for this post is a video on youtube.  Listen to his rendition and then read below after pondering the lyrics.


pastors, churches, congregations, PEOPLE it’s time for this lunacy to stop before we are relegated to an small… ineffective minority.  let’s not reject those with a passion for Christ..let’s embrace them.  it’s time for the destruction of each other to stop. If you truly want revival…when somebody cautiously enters your house looking for fellowship let’s welcome them as a member of Jesus’s family.  If you truly believed that it wouldn’t take nearly 10 years for someone to be truly welcomed.  The first act should be welcoming the person to your house of God…not immediately recruiting for whatever clique or fiefdom you have setup.  The first ongoing act should not be to see how this passionate person can be brought to heel….the correct way is to find out how that person can be plugged in and that god given fire been utilized to re-light the church’s beacon of Jesus’s light..not a systematic plan of attacks and whispers to keep the church’s light at a comfortable level that you can control.  how many churches are spiritually empty?  I’ve known quite a few and am currently worried about another one.  I could go on for much longer but most folks have already tuned out by now.  For those truly brave souls who have read through…and are truly moved to jump into your church and institute some change let me know you’ve found this inspiring.  As the Spirit inspires me i’ll post more here.

I’ve been trying to be “more civilized” the past few years…it’s gotten me more problems with folks who think they know more than me about many things they have no idea about.  The lid’s off now…:)  I’m going to express how i feel and if folks can’t handle it..too bad for them.  My loving wife likes to tell folks i’m a redneck…that hasn’t shown much…i won’t be vulgar or destructive but the filters are gone now…if i don’t like something..or’ll know…right then.  I’ve had a better life when I’ve remained true to myself….it’s a hard lesson to I’ve recently been reminded of by a coward recently.  Now i have the Gov’t getting into my affairs.  It’s time for this lunacy to stop…and it’s time to get out of any kid of incorporated “city” entity…Frederick county isn’t rural enough anymore…because of Frederick city.  Their cancer is now spreading into the rest of the county..of course it’s a symptom of the state of Maryland being the way it is.  I’m looking for Kentucky or maybe Tennessee type rural area. Some folks are in for quite the awakening….i’ll leave those details as a “surprise”…watch for the rattlesnake..they tend to bite when tread upon..:)  My previous post with Aaron Lewis has some great lyrics:


I still live in the sticks where you wouldn’t go
In a town of 1200 off an old dirt road
And a country boy is all I’ll ever be

That’s where i’m going…as Charlie Daniels says at the end of the song:

I love my country…I love my guns.

I love my family…I lvoe the way it is now

And anybody that tried to change it has to come through me.

That should be all of our attitudes

Cause this is america and a country boy is good enough for me son.

The “gay” folks just as much right to refuse business to Christians as the Christians do to refuse to the Gays.  Purely Constitutional.  The fact the sate is apparently going to force the issue would be enough for me to move out of that state.

A Lexington, KY t-shirt company is under investigation by the city’s Human Rights Commission after they refused to print t-shirts for a local gay rights organization.

The owner of “Hands On Originals,” a well-known t-shirt company in the region, declined to print the shirts for the city’s Gay and Lesbian Services Organization (GLSO) because it would conflict with their Christian convictions.

The privately owned company is now accused of violating Lexington’s Fairness Act – which protects people and organizations from discrimination based on sexual orientation or gender identity.

The attacks are out of line, said Jim Campbell, an attorney with Alliance Defense Fund, the organization representing “Hands On Originals.”

“No business owner should be forced to violate his conscience simply because someone demands it,” he said. “The Constitution absolutely supports the rights of business owners to decline a request to support a message that conflicts with their deeply held convictions.”

Raymond Sexton, the executive director of the Human Rights Commission told Fox News that “Hands On Originals” will be “required by law to participate in the investigation.”

“We have subpoena power and have the backing of the law,” he said. “We are a law enforcement agency and people have to comply.”

Should the company be found guilty of discriminating against the homosexuals Sexton said they could be subjected to fines.

“Hands On Originals” has faced a barrage of attacks since the accusations were made public. More than 2,000 people have joined a boycott movement on Facebook. Another group is trying to buy the company’s mortgage so they can be evicted.

via Gay Rights Group Files Human Rights Complaint Against T-Shirt Company | FOX News & Commentary: Todd Starnes.

Read this carefully.  this is the state the world is in..and where it is going.  If you are easily disturbed i would not read this until you have prepared yourself.


The article, published in the Journal of Medical Ethics, says newborn babies are not “actual persons” and do not have a “moral right to life”. The academics also argue that parents should be able to have their baby killed if it turns out to be disabled when it is born.The journal’s editor, Prof Julian Savulescu, director of the Oxford Uehiro Centre for Practical Ethics, said the articles authors had received death threats since publishing the article. He said those who made abusive and threatening posts about the study were “fanatics opposed to the very values of a liberal society”.The article, entitled “After-birth abortion: Why should the baby live?”, was written by two of Prof Savulescu’s former associates, Alberto Giubilini and Francesca Minerva.They argued: “The moral status of an infant is equivalent to that of a fetus in the sense that both lack those properties that justify the attribution of a right to life to an individual.”Rather than being “actual persons”, newborns were “potential persons”. They explained: “Both a fetus and a newborn certainly are human beings and potential persons, but neither is a ‘person’ in the sense of ‘subject of a moral right to life’

via Killing babies no different from abortion, experts say – Telegraph.

Unfortunately they took their story to Sony…I have to say i’m not surprised at the twists and omissions and additions that were made…:(


Based on the love story of two devout Christians, the movie version of “The Vow,” starring Rachel McAdams and Channing Tatum, strips the tale of its overt religious themes, which has some Christian reviewers concerned.The film is based on the true life story and book, “The Vow” by Kim and Krickitt Carpenter, which draws heavily on that couple’s Christian beliefs and the power of God to heal and shepherd a marriage through difficult times.The book tells the story of  Kim and Krickitt, who met and fell in love over a long distance phone call in 1992, bonded over their Christian faith, and were married a very short time later. Just 10 weeks into their marriage, the couple survived a terrible car wreck that left Krickitt in a coma with severe head trauma. Upon waking, Krickitt experienced amnesia and was essentially married to a stranger, forgetting the last 18 months of her life.Throughout the book, it is the couple’s religious belief in the unbreakable vow of marriage that keeps them together.“You make a promise before God with your wedding vows,” Krickitt Carpenter told “You have to take that seriously.”The studio version of the Carpenter’s marriage, however, strips the couple of their Christianity.“The movie doesn’t talk about faith significantly. It would have been nice to see more of it,” Kim Carpenter told “The first book we wrote was extremely embedded in our faith, but I think the movie does depict the inspiration of the battle to hang in there. I think the audience realizes we are a people of faith.”

via Real-life Couple From The Vow Says It would Have Been Nice To See Christian References In Film | Fox News.

Human Christmas Tree Protests Holiday Decoration Ban At Staten Island Ferry Terminal | Fox News.

Human Christmas Tree at Staten Island Ferry Terminal:

I am buying the dvd so i can have it in high quality but keep an open mind and listen to this account of research.


The Star of Bethlehem.divx : Free Download & Streaming : Internet Archive.



wow…this is a moving experience to watch this.  Have to give thanks to Anthony for this one

INCREDIBLE Duet – Jotta A Michely Manuely Sing Hallelujah – Inspirational Videos.



I had a long day at work yesterday..not a bad one.. just long.  It has been so dry my days with my mowing service employer have been just a few hours or non-existent.  I got home and i was tired but not dehydrated or overheated…i felt good for a days work well done.  I spent some great time at church talking with the youth pastor and chaired a meeting of the IT committee which i run.  All in all a productive night.  When I got home though things went sour quickly.  I began to feel light-headed, then went to nausea, migraines, and sinus pressure.  I felt like i was going to throw up then i got dizzy and began shaking..nearly uncontrollably.  My wife who is my rock on this earth told me it has to be a spiritual attack,,,why?  I was not overheated…i was not dehydrated…i had not eaten fast food for lunch…nothing of the things i am prone to do during the day to get me to this state have i done.  We began praying….we prayed against the sickness hitting me in Jesus’s name.  We prayed the pure blood of Jesus over all of us.  I don’t know how long i was under this attack but finally the pain subsided enough…the dizziness faded…the nausea vanished…and for the first time..i felt tired enough to go to sleep…which i did.  I woke up sometime later and needed to take a couple of Tylenol but otherwise it’s over.  Other than not remembering anything else about last night and being a little disoriented today I am 100%.  Upon talking with my wife this morning I had a bit of divine discernment.  The whole family is getting “beatdown” because we have all decided we are going to start attending church activities on wed night.  Wed night is a powerful spiritual night at our church and we are going to jump into the pool….our good adversary apparently does NOT want us to do this….however he has not learned that at least with us..when you do stuff like this it only strengthens our resolve to do it.  For those who know me well I’m a pig headed(oh my goodness one of my cats just fell into the washing machine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  rofl!  She got herself out though) and if you tell me not to do something that I am determined to do…well…look out..:)

For nearly 8 years now I have been working two jobs…one mowing grass and my business…Emmanuel Computer Consulting. This dual arrangement worked for a while but recently it became clear I needed to concentrate on my business as client calls were beginning to interfere with my ability to fully perform my duties as a field supervisor at my other job.  I have the philosophy to give 100% at whatever you are doing..and my mowing job has been no exception.  It has resulted in the owner allowing me to practically run the company in his absence with confidence his business will be taken care of.   i’ve been praying for restitution to this situation.  Recently my wife Gen was released form her job because “she did not have a positioned available at the new facility”.  80% of our household income just went poofies.  Well Gen and I had been praying for her to get out of the job she has and for me to be able to step in with my business and take her place(which in my opinion is how it should be).  I just had a meeting today with the owner of a much larger IT firm about doing some sub contracting work for him at his request.  After a very productive conversation and a good negotiation we came to a mutually agreed per-job payrate.  I now have to talk to the manager with whom i would be working with on a daily basis.  Once that interview is completed if they both approve i’ll have a contracting job making more than double what i make at the lawn mowing job.  This contract is at least 6 months..almost certainly longer.  I just now realized something as i type this…the barrier(which i could not figure out what it was) to me being able to do just this was gen’s job.  Not that i wanted her to loose her job…but me and gen BOTH wanted the roles to be reversed per say.  The Lord is providing that right now. One of my clients has an office manager position offer which gen would love to work at…it’s 10 minutes from the house and i literally drive by it every time i head to Frederick and back.  It would be perfect.  So far I have moved out of the way and let God work this out….He is working mightlyily indeed.  Updates to follow..:)


There’s a new controversy about the Bible going around.  When you dig jsut a little bit under the surface this quote form a fired methodist pastor sums it up nicely, “So long as we believe there’s a dividing point in eternity, we’re going to think in terms of us and them,” he said. “But when you believe God has saved everyone, the point is, you’re saved. Live like it.”

However that’s not how God has structured things.  God has NOT saved everyone from their sins.  The Bible is consistent in saying that ALL men(which means all people) are sinners. What He did through Jesus is give everyone the OPPORTUNITY TO BE SAVED from their sins through belief in His Son Jesus Christ.  That’s a very important distinction and one that is NOT being told by this pastor nor Rob Bell whose book started this “Controversy”.  The Bible is very clear about how you get into heaven and how you don’t. The Bible then makes it very clear what happens if you don’t accept Jesus as your savior. This is yet another misguided attempt to say everyone can get to heaven or to deny the existence of hell.

“So long as we believe there’s a dividing point in eternity, we’re going to think in terms of us and them,” he said. “But when you believe God has saved everyone, the point is, you’re saved. Live like it.”

via Who’s in Hell? Pastors’ Criticism of Eternal Torment for Some Sparks Fierce Debate –